jupitersterrain four

140916  11.40 pm

what i havent told a soul ... 
i actually jumped out of the window several times 
and off the top of the shed as well
one time i had a wank on top of the shed 
and felt this helped to cushion the fall ... 
delightfully dizzy 

i jumped out of the window 
and my head was bleeding. 
Dev told me to put a sanitary towel on the wound 
to keep it clean ... 
i took photos of my bloodied hair 
and uploaded them on Photobucket as a fashion statement  ... 

then about 2 months later i jumped again
with an arrangement of sofa cushions and duvets on the grass 
the feeling of concussion was bliss

i decided i should propel myself outwards a bit more 
and thats when i got injured 

i fully intended to get hurt 
but not as much as i did 
well actually ... well i was not trying to kill myself ...