jupitersterrain four

you know ... 
im worried i might relapse 
and he will end up getting hold of me at a weak moment 
then he kind of wears you down to get what he wants ... 

this man came round 
that i had a date with in 2014
when i was in his room, 
he brought out some amyl nitrate 
that made me feel very out of it 
and i couldn't see properly for weeks 

so i decided to stop seeing him 
he put a hand written letter through the door yesterday 
asking to meet me. 
i have written to him asking him to refrain from contact ...