word jam : barking n gunshot

it hurts to hear barking n gunshot 

she doesnt know him like i do 

so if i watched porn 

would that be cheating on my partner 

or would it make me 

less clingy to him 

or if i think about it 

in my head 

i did that with two friends 

n there was sharing going on 

is he the wine that pours from

your lute ? is he the music

that comes from a place

where music is 

redundant? 

that 

makes a sound 

only Gods and devils 

can hear? is he the beginning 

and the end of the circle 

where time stands still

that you can feel under your skin 

a hundred miles away ... does 

he make your soul blossom 

like a orchid in a 

hothouse 

your stilettoes

compliment the muscle 

under the gauze 

As throngs of excited guitar

beat applause 

his hair looks subtle

under the chiffon

how about his mate

kept in suspense

thick fingers 

study the elastic

we paint his lips with khol 

and fruited lipsalve 

trace contours of his chest

what is so funny 

he can hardly stand up. 

as he grapples me for the handle 

you think the weirdest things 

n this is a wild card 

a throw of the dice 

n it wasnt where i landed