jupitersterrain four

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even on the internet !
my last relationship / fling
was a friend, and he had actually told me
that he lost his driving licence due to drink


probably sensing that I liked a ' bad boy '
which is usually an alcoholic or a co-alcoholic


and I thought thats it, I'm leaving alone relationships
for about 10 years !


ive heard people make different goals like that
in some fellowships they recommend a year out


and I remember a story in a magazine,
someone had taken 10 years out and then met the right person


I feel that I'm not actually even looking for that at the moment
I have found other things on the internet


except that I now find myself flirting online
and the latest one has guess what , just lost his driving licence !
according to him because of mental health issues
but when I think about it , he sounds mighty alcoholic actually


the way he speaks about women and stuff
the kind of charm which is skin deep
and he thinks he is emotionally supportive
when he actually has no idea what that really entails


but that charm and charisma is there ...


and there it is the same pattern


only now on the internet, I have not gone too far into it
we have not even privately mailed