word jam : blood stained gloves

theres a smokey moon
vinyl has a more earthy texture 
the scratchy grooves 
where a soul is etched 

i just feel stigmatised
i  can't be externalising 
my mental health issues in public 

I'm seen as odd, 
my brain is squirming 
i feel that i stick out 
like a sore thumb 


climate protests 
are about so much more than climate change 
the surveillance , internet, robots,   
they want to come together 
and glue themselves to mother earth 

feeling an amazing energy of connection 
passing between them 

its the other way round 
when nature casts spells on ME  

gender 0.65 

spin the bottle, 
rough house parties 
sharing parties  

orientation 0.01 

i'll pretend to agree 
i'll pretend to disagree  

there were two bloodstained gloves 
and some half eaten pizza 
splattered in the middle of the road 

someone in a very distressed state 

he reached over to the empty tables 
and drank the leftover dregs 

admitting to myself 
things i am deeply ashamed of

the way he speaks about women and stuff 
the kind of charm which is skin deep 
and he thinks he is emotionally supportive 
when he doesnt know the meaning ! 

but that charm and charisma is there ... 

and there it is the same pattern 

we are all on the brink 
of becoming a psychopath