jupitersterrain four

201120

why did we not talk about the ideal self ?

because I was too far down for that ... goals were mentioned lightly

if at all and my self esteem is still damaged in fact

still in survival mode beneath the glass floor

learning to give yourself unconditional love

is one of the hardest things in life I find

even if you have had it at a young age

I've not been happy with gestalt methods in therapy

because I get enough aggravation and challenge in my life

and I expect unconditional self regard from a therapist or support worker

I'm sorry people have found your sensitivities unacceptable

thats particularly a guy thing I think , yes I see what you mean

I've actually had the opportunity to act out

most of my unacceptable thoughts actually in my illness

apart from directly expressing anger which is a bit of a girl thing

I guess people write novels in order to act out

what they are too afraid to