word jam : woke people

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to feel my feelings
rather than explaining them away

orgasm gasm gasm gasm

i understand certain things ive learned
like ' owning your feelings '
and responding rather than reacting
trying not to finger point
to refrain from ad hominem
to journal and seek therapy rather than taking it out on other people
to recognise when something is about my issues not the other persons

i described myself as progressive
because after 35 years in therapy
i know something about the latest in communication skills
and in business models actually
where play , wellbeing and interactive skills are being used
by the most progressive companies

and number six is far more intellectual than me
im really struggling to keep up with him 



apparently those of us who are progressive 


that have causes we are passionate about 


that are not very right wing 


that have other values than our appearance 



apparently we are a pain in the backside 

and might lead a partner to go downhill career - wise ! 

like a trauma to mind and body
our orgasms are cathartic

i can leave my fairy lights up
and the sparkly things
that are not too Christmassy

Happy New Year guys !

maybe people think im pious or something
because i dont drink
but i really do have a good time without it !

my favourite author 
has spoken 

of his love / hate relationship with the Catholic Church 


I mean who doesn't love the Virgin Mary 


and those catholic nurses are great when you are at your illest ...



as you recover you start to challenge things more 


and alas we fail to come up to her standards

 



and the winds of change no pun intended 


under Browns labour government 


actually scrapped the very good sheltered workshops and jobclubs


in favour of pressure to look after each other 
with no training 

 



the winds of change switch this way and that way 
with changes in government 


our ' mental health community ' in my area 
was further eroded 

 a freak ' mindfulness ' session layed on by a minor celebrity 

which I can't name 
who had us focus on the perineum 

for the whole session 
and make sexual noises ! 

and I feel the influence of the current political climate
on my skin , like a sheep sensing a coming storm !

its terrible how hard you have to fight for your recovery !

because we are some kind of alien super race !

n yeah those nuns be hiding a thing or two

then again i am wearing a long dark dress myself ...

sometimes the dawn chorus starts early
when there is low cloud
with the urban sky glow

dizzy giddy light-headed faint
weak at the knees unsteady shaky wobbly off-balance
reeling staggering tottering. teetering woozy with legs like jelly
with rubbery legs vertiginous
dazed confused muddled befuddled bewildered
disorientated stupefied groggy muzzy dopey woolly not with it

but be sure to get some oestrogen
lest you drain other people

yous are making it hard to let go of number six
when yous keep trying to assault him !

and every day could be Christmas

apologies to guy number six
ive been hypocritical and reactive

guy number six and i 

are both quite volatile 

at the moment
our nerves are frayed 

from all the control

the other things 

are obviously mutual stimulation
all ways to build closeness and confidence

thing is i have found personally
that some performance 

and even physcial issues
can be resolved therapeutically
to build desire through 

other kinds of touching
like for example the classic way
' taking sex off the table '