word jam : the dream world

 


k so the cam girl and i are in some king of a bartering game
because we represent different frontiers
our bantering is not necessarily hostile
 
i feel like a toy
this is mental health not learning difficulties
im going against the grain of popular thinking
 
youre my ride
 
hey dude ... i will feel hurt if you leave me
i will hurt real bad
even though you have done it before ...
 
patriot terrorist snake bite boot good
 
anything triggered you today ?
 
i was flash mobbed at the supermarket  
 
a whirlwind of emotions

what would I need to hear if that was me talking
 
maybe that was a cultural thing
he was telling me about his day
in which he had to help out with a situation
where something bad had happened  
 
and i thought he was giving me a warning
 
perhaps my adrenalin junkie days are over
very delerious from the heat and the astra zeneca jab
 
adrenalin junkie guitar gently melts
 
hey why'd i blow him off like that ?
im really evil !
 
have you tried looking at a page of emoticons
see if they trigger anything ?
 
dizzy wobbly shaky
still my guitar slowly melts
 
 
I had my jab yesterday which put me out of my mind a bit
and then I watched a visualization
where you go to the land of the elves where hobbits and stuff reside

I slept for 10 hours after that
and went to a gnomes party with a band playing

there in the crowd were some estranged relatives standing together !

today I have the sense that there are real fairies about
living amongst the flowers in an alternate universe

I think if you pull the other way
they will either follow you or you will reach someone else 



feelings are like a runaway horse 


they can't always be stopped 


but if you let them free they will go other places as well

when we are done fighting
the grasses are waving in the sun
 
i didnt know ther was trafiking going on
 
number 2 has promised to marry me off to number z
i think because my interest in number 6
spoils the view from his window
and to make the cam girl supreme
he needs to destroy me
so that they can usher in the new global financial order together
 
i didnt contact you because i thought you didnt want me to
was i being too forward ?
why am i always making the first move ?
 
so if a woman is past her best
in terms of looks
then if she talks about sex
she is not asking for it
 
and one of them flew so close i could feel his wings on my hair !

are women asking for it ?


if they join in or initiate conversations about sex ?
if they wear revealing clothes ?

is it assumed that if a woman expresses herself sexually
that she must be issuing an invitation to somebody ?  

is it only men who are allowed to broach these topics ?

must women accept whatever is dished back in return ?


I don't know because addicts have the shakes though

I was looking at my regrettable past today
in which in my twenties I used to get into fights with men !

but it left me with a newly discovered courage
 
you have been heard
im sorry this has happened to you
 

the adrenalin fuelled adventures
lead me to fulfill my dream of paragliding
and to experience the dream world here on earth
 
I stopped drinking and went crazy that way

and after all you can get better experiences from meditation
if you know what you are looking for

you never know you might get laid off
and i might get laid on
is what im worried about ha ha

empathy is to feel the other persons feelings
sexual empathy
 

hypnic jerks
from the narcotic injection
im not all there
what they wanna do that for ? 
bit of a snake bite that one
way to go giving in to the black hole
he could do better than me
and yet here he is
and now im inflated
bit of a scorpion sting