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Sunday 29 September 2024
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his blog is copyright of LIZARIKK, booley , the harpie the identity thief, bisto , cloud and baby mother are not welcome
please dont abduct Dev for mating duties
uploaded some more notes
thanks Dev for the messages, i will take a look , hug
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brainstorming the title and author
The Love Bombers by Lucinda Ember
or maybe Lacey Ember
uploaded a bit more
still married to Dev hopefully hug
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I've got a rash on my leg . If it needs antibiotics I'll be slowed down for a couple of weeks
I lost a couple pounds weight am off bread and sugar
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My vibrator is a fire hazard , I hope it doesn't electrocute me
uploaded another page
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Still married to Dev hopefully hug
Sound track to the Simon relationship was Metallica , especially sandman and the unforgiven
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After his dad died , Stuart came into her room and asked to have sex with her
Ahe said you're just upsel
11 minutes, g spot
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Not thinking of doing anything to my eyebrows Dev ! X
i dont feel very well Dev . people ask to have cyber sex with me and then say they didnt
not that ive said who they were either !
Is that coming from the chuckster ? As I said its really not about size . They're taking the piss Dev
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Sometimes you can feel the raw sexuality in a man's dick like its a stick of salami
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Saturday 28 September 2024
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i dug up some archives from my blogs and posted them with the book
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK, booley , the harpie the identity thief, bisto , cloud and baby mother are not welcome
please dont abduct Dev for mating duties
K certain person is now called bottle
I don't want anything done to my face Dev , maybe the tummy and breasts
uploaded another page
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Two women both with strap ons taking it in turns , some foreplay and ending in the g spot , 18 minutes
ive broken another vibrator Dev , it keeps switching itself on
ive put it outside in some damp bushes in case its a fire hazard , i have others but this one only lasted a month !
an artwork i found from 2011
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My vibrator is a fire hazard
still married to Dev hopefully
Friday 27 September 2024
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word jam : sober as the day i was born
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , the harpie the identity thief and bisto are not welcome
I get caught doing it on the bus, the police clear the bus do me , some are black some white
12 minutes on the g spot
Multiples not so much , sometimes two
There was one with Dev that went on for a long time
I ready all of my parents books on sex
And we somehow accessed porn films and magazines, long before the Internet
i started off heading somewhere and then went somewhere im not supposed to go and will head back when im not supposed to
im actually a cis female if sometimes i seem like a pantomime one
I get called a basket case
no 2 is getting my neighbours to do percussion to deliver fake intelligence
I like doing male musicians
the sex feels like music
but i recommend trying to fantasise about someone you dont like
this vibrator is too big to go in and has a ridge on it
which might get stuck on the hymen
in 2013 i did actually make myself shag everybody , not sure i can repeat that , im just enjoying being straight again
a freaky thing to think about someone you dont really like !
somethin Dev taught me
i even had a fantasy about a tree !
So shoving him with the side of my arm and the burning feeling I knock him back a bit and he's weakened with laughter
Then a rival appears with a load of mates and says hey there's a triangle going on here , and shoves me in the chest
I shout at her and Dev shows me how to not react
Then we vanish
One guy we did it on a hillside with cars going past in the dark
and he lifted my skirt so the headlights lit up my behind !
Hyde Park i think back in the 80s and this really creepy man crept out from behind a tree watching us so we grabbed our things and ran
at work at my desk when nobody was around , so I thought, unaware of surveillance
The boss flirted with me so that's maybe why
There was one guy from my generation , he and his siblings used to throw poo at the ceiling , just for fun
maybe if i shove him really hard he wil step backwards
he might be surprised how much force i can put into it
In the hospital a nurse walked through the curtain while I was doing it
I said do you mind !
k so there was a woman with a strap on
and a man watching , then he pulls her off me at the end
There are muscles and nerves linking the clit to the g spot
one time i was off my meds and upstairs on the bus when some yobs decided they wanted the window shut
so they slammed the window above my head and i got up and threw it open , this went back and forth for a while with him aggressively swearing so i sat there and screamed
Stone cold sober
Thursday 26 September 2024
and our marriage ! cheers bisto !
k now shes stalking me on a disabiltiy forum with multiple identities , i dont want to talk to her Dev , its not going anywehre
Dev if it's a competition between me and bisto that's not a marriage ...
well in the long term that is. right now im giving you the benefit of the doubt !
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I get caught masturbating on the bus, the police clear the bus and have sex with me , some are black some white
12 minutes on the g spot
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A negative campaign is where you just dis the other contender rather than expressing what you can offer
Wednesday 25 September 2024
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Theyre trying to abduct Dev for mating duties
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This blog is copyright of LIZARIKK
Harpie , identity thief and bisto not welcome
Please don't abduct Dev for mating duties , still married to him
I think no 2 might be interfering with my hiv results , hopefully Dev will know if he does?
uploaded more book and morning pages
If you want to try with the battery switched off it needs to be long enough to bump the cervix
Multiple orgasms not so much , sometimes two
There was one with Dev that went on for a long time
Some of the relationships ended because I was mentally or physically unwell
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All my parents had books on sex which we would read when we were out ! Mailer for one , married life in an African tribe , and I absorbed alot of Freud without actually reading it
And we somehow accessed porn films and magazines, long before the Internet
11 minutes on the g spot
i started off heading somewhere and then went somewhere im not supposed to go and will head back when im not supposed to
im actually a cis female if sometimes i seem like a pantomime one
they say ive got great skin though
my hiv test came out indeterminate so i have to book a test
K I put in a request for the GP to re test
Hope nobody is fiddling with it
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k theres more on the book and more later
thanks Dev for the article and messages, you seem to be in a good mood which im hoping is hopeful for my test resulf :hug:
enjoyed being married today , for a change, i find the words difficult sometimes
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four more pages on the book
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my stepmother just called me an emotional basket case
possibly becaue i said i have an interested in a man ive never met
who has not contacted me
well thats what i told her anyway
calling me an emotional basket case is not helpful !
Tuesday 24 September 2024
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This blog is copyright of LIZARIKK . The identity thief , the harpie and bisto are not welcome
no 2 is getting my neighbours to do percussion to deliver fake intelligence
Al fayed is innocent . Clockwork is threatening to torture Dev to get a baby
Stepm other iz on the forum delivering wisdom . Look I know you're upset about your husbands porn so don't try to tell me about it !
I'm married to Dev because he threatened to kill himself
One thing I noticed is baby mother seems to have stopped abducting no 6 since I left him
Dev does bisto every night . I've not had a fantasy about him for weeks
I like doing male musicians
the sex feels like music
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Thanks for the article Dev you reckon I can go back to the memoir ? I don't think so , it'd offend my friends , but they're sure to influence the fiction
Hug
After touring the world I identify as straight
but i recommend trying to fantasise about someone you dont like
this vibrator is too big to go in and has a ridge on it
which might get stuck on the hymen
i thought the idea of being married is you dont actually act on your fantasies
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In my heyday I could do it with a vibrator that no longer worked !
Monday 23 September 2024
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This blog is COPYRIGHT of LIZARIKK , THE IDENTITY THIEF IS NOT WELCOME
the harpie is not welcome
Please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
work smart , care smart
You're not the only one who's bored Dev ..ive stayed married to you so you don't kill yourself but not really enjoying it
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k that was 2 blokes holding me down and one on top hitting the g spot and a bit further down, 10 minutes
This vibrator is too big to go in I can't even try
OkDev we're still married I don't want to lose you
Trying to push through sugar withdrawal, hence the dried fruit
these artworks were made in an afterglow in 2013
new band called Slut ! ( nothing to do with me )
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K3fJVS8wfow
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uploaded more book Dev
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in 2013 i did actually make myself shag everybody , not sure i can repeat that , im just enjoying being straight again
a freaky thing to think about someone yuo dont really like !
somethin Dev taught me
i even had a fantasy about a tree !
Sunday 22 September 2024
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uploaded more book , started again with a fictional character
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Saturday 21 September 2024
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Then bisto appears with a load of mates and says hey there's a triangle going on here , and shoves me in the chest
this is where i asked them to put the person with the light coming from the side on 12 septemer
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never can get Wabbits super wild hunting monster yellow eyed look, he looks away when i get the camera out
uploaded another possible ending to the book
me and Lee had sex under Brighton pier with the thrill of getting caught
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8 minutes , double ended vibrator hitting the g spot
Guys to get on this maybe gave a micro shot of oestrogen from a plant source
n now with cyber sex we can go anywhere we like
Friday 20 September 2024
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This blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , bisto and the harpie are not welcome , clockwork is threatening to abduct Dev and force him to marry her , no 2 is threatening me with a med change , Al fayed is innocent
someone left this toy on a bench where i stop every day and a man sprayed me with sore throat germs, will have to sit somewhere else to avoid these flies
I use the side of my arm to push him and feel a burning sensation and an orange light
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One time I gave myself an orgasm at work at my desk when nobody was around , so I thought, unaware of surveillance
The boss flirted with me so that's maybe why
another time it was 2013 and i did one in the garden with a duvet over me
I did one to the song she's so high that was awesome
Thursday 19 September 2024
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this blog is copyring of LIZARIKK
Clockwork is threatening to abduct Dev and have him forced to marry her
Al fayed is innocent
The harpie is not welcome , nor bisto , who is threatening for someone to come beat me up and dissing me on a disability forum
body positive dress
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Coined the term porn widow , or porn widower
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I put my hand to his chest and push him backwards . He holds me down on the ground , I have to escape without injuring him
190924 the frequency no 2 ? Er you made your bed and you're lying on it
N yeah we got back together for a few hours it was part of Devs magic tricks, a few weeks ago
I invited you a number of times to talk to me as a friend no 2 and you dont , there's no rapport
So now I'm here having a play fight with Dev
He punches Dev who holds him down then he no 2 calls the cops
N Dev and i are nowhere to be seen
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There was one guy from my generation , he and his siblings used to throw poo at the ceiling , just for fun
maybe if i shove him really hard he wil step backwards
he might be surprised how much force i can put into it
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how does my book end ? mabye the ghost of the Trixy haunts the downs
k sorry i need to think of a whole load of new names
In the mental hospital they have to keep opening the curtain to keep checking on you and one time I said do you mind I was having a wank If you must know
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Wednesday 18 September 2024
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bisto is threatening to kill herself Dev
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Dev i think something has been removed from my blogs , there should be a burning bush somewhere
found it !
Please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
This blog is copyright of LIZARIKK, bisto and the harpie are not welcome , or clockwork who is kicking off , although I hope she comes to a better place in herself
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imagining if Dev appeared on my path and we'd have a play fight
apparently my psychiatrist wants to change my meds with the intention of harming and controlling me ...
Ive reacted to the harpie not because of no 6 but because she's still slagging me off of a support forum for the disabled
k so there was a woman with a strap on
and a man watching , then he pulls her off me to get the climax
g spot 6 minutes , starting to prefer the g spot and there seems to be muscles and nerves linking it to the clitoris
And I don't smell of fish
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body positive template and dress
the white circles are holes showing skin
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As a teenager we had holidays in Scotland and I'd go out in the forest to masturbate on my own , really trippy
shot by a camera i sketched in 2103 but its now too faint
surveillance i cant find so ive redrawn it
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190924 thanks Dev im thinking of putting my hand on your chest and pushing you backwards
Tuesday 17 September 2024
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Can you please not abduct Dev , you'll diminish yourselves ..
This blog is copyright of LIZARIKK
180924 apparently my psychiatrist wants to mess with my meds . I'll be careful what I say , thanks Dev
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Thanks Andy for the article
thanks Dev for the kicking
a tale of two tails
i remember feeling i could have had an acting career but chose an authentic life instead , i wanted to experience love in the wildest way possible and so that i did
one time i was off my meds and upstairs on the bus when some yobs decided they wanted the window shut
so they slammed the window above my head and i got up and threw it open , this went back and forth for a while with him aggressively swearing so i sat there and screamed
word jam : posh girl falls for werewolf
The algorithms
n yeah i did talk about hiring a hit man to kill me
so my family could get the inheritance !
Ill be reporting words like spastic and retard, nobody has thought of that apart from me
people are all too happy to get bounty by abusing the disabled
I said Dorothy hepworth and Patricia preece were lovers and Patricia married Stanley Spencer for security on the condition he could ' join in '
I don't think it worked out because only one of Patricia's artworks survived ...
Not that im in love with a woman , I mean that he was an undercover cop
The g spot gives a different vibration and is much coveted
By both men and women
There are ways of exploring it
Even enjoying a shower can be sexual
Mental illness is like getting high and never coming down again
Always alone standing before a monster trying to sweet talk it
The monster may turn friendly but it's all on his terms
Sex is mind altering
Ive overheard men talking when I wasn’t there
Why do women smell of fish , do they piss out of their vaginas ?
27 is quite old for a filly , she’s a right little goer
That ones too easy gis us a strawwwwberry
Sometimes I would sit with them to see how much I could take
There’s always more to find out about yourself
I often buy a new vibrator because I break them
And some of them get noisy
they had a fight down an alley way ,
all this talk of drugs and violence ,
and the guy with the chain won this one
My book will be called The love bomber :
narcissism and violence in the 1980s
There’s a sword hanging in the air
In a cave with blue sheets of rain
Explodes and bits of stalactites
Luminous green icicles
N shells and things all going flying
The light reflecting itself like a sheet of air
Making a guillotine mask on the beach
I gasped at that flash of light
My mother thought the radiators were bugged
By Scottish Celts
You look like moon light
I did a painting of you which was admired
Alcohol sometimes puts me into a threesome fantasy
My young neighbours are in the garden having
A laugh about the Paralympics
And people with no arms or legs
N yeah you did make me feel suffocated on one occasion
A relative was watching
difficult for me to understand that i didnt deserve the abuse .
i was quite a nasty piece of work at the time, bitchy and very beautiful , making cutting put downs, stuck up that kind of thing
In those days fighting was a display of passion
N now I treat other people for trauma
Unique angle ? Posh girl falls for a werewolf and his abuse is what made her what she is
and highlight mental health , the zeitgeist , the music ,
k so for me drug highs were nothing compared to thrill seeking highs , some of them dangerous and destructive in my younger years , danger and violence lots of adrenalin
in my childhood you werent anybody unless you were getting divorced or living in sin
He had traits of hippy ness , but a very clean one , very straight edge , an emo kid with an anorak , thats where i get the geek thing from , i really didnt expect to fall from him he wasnt my type
and the squats ? we had people from the streets , people of all races , guitars , percussion instruments , practically open door
and people trying to ' guru ' us , older people , we didnt seem to be afraid of anybody , made up beds for them, shared our food , smoked dope together
and i would get violently sick , not sure if it was because of the hygiene or some kind of spiking , i remember people putting their hands on my back to heal me as i screamed in sickness
brushes with death i thnk mostly around Simon , being chased with a pane of glass , being locked into his flat , threatned with scissors ive often felt close to death and found it comforting
the zeitgeist was that everybody was fighting , there were drugs but id say that fights and arguments were more the in thing at the time , swearing , shouting , angst, drama , soap operas going on , intrigues , infidelities that sort of thing
but yes we had some good parties, doing freak out dances, the others standing in a circle while one person lets rips
We're one of those cultures with embarrassed politeness but also extremely rude and offensive we are , unceremonious
N those days I was more into the journey than the destination
I wasn’t bothered if I didn’t arrive id just sort it out later
in a squat when you have to gobble up your plate of food quickly before someone else asks for it , then tells you youre ' tight ' for not giving it up
there was a saxophone player waited about four days for me once !
K so you're down to your last tenner , your boyfriend is chasing you with a pane of glass and you've got to get on a train with no money
And a voice boomed out you have been seen jumping over the ticket barrier
N running and running into London with no clue where I was going , not a good runner. I found superhuman strength from the adrenalin , I could suprise a man with how strong I was
It took me two years to get him into bed
The earthy sensuality of bohemian life sofas draped with purple and marooon
Velvet throws rooms dimly lit in the day time , smell of wine and cork
Trippy wallpaper with huge flowers an atmosphere of sin
the backpack used to carry supplies that id looked up in an SAS suvival manual
including a pen knife and everything wrapped in plastic
i seem to have bitten and scratched him today ! Guess I'm like a smelly rescue cat with trust issues
Drugs were nothing compared to coming off them with my straight edge boyfriend ! and the ensuing awakening , the surge of energy up the spine , deepening perception of colours and sounds , and a flash of lightening , similar but much more intense than an acid trip
not sure if it was the adrenalin from our fights . When we were not fighting we'd be running through the streets laughing , playing music and madly in love . There was nobody else , no game playing with other lovers , just each other
that day we carried candles through the streets wishing strangers a happy Christmas . the world wasnt ready for us
I had a conversation in the sex shop said I'm exploring the g spot, and therefore don't want the rabbit ones , she said its just round the corner as you go in , which I agreed with
Some of the vibrators are like a large crochet hook to dig into the g spot
Last time I saw that lady she didn't open up but has now got into the spirit !
Actually I was most horny during the change
With much bigger climaxes and those trippy ones where the sky goes black and you're thrown off the bed , there was one person in particular that triggered them
There's a kind of force field from the collective trauma
a roiling cauldron of trouble
i had a pattern of lusting for a guy , lacking confidence and then getting off with his friend
some men would say no which would impress me. they were interested but not sure , not ready ,
I hugged a serial killler in the secure unit
He was on the run
At one point I had two periods a month