compiling Finches Claw

Sunday, 7 April 2013
Wednesday, 6 March 2013
00.08
she died peacefully in my sleep 
Ive killed her her laughter 
clattering against the mirror 
reflecting the insanity of her shattered mind 
Sunday, 7 April 2013

the traffic light is red .... 
she died peacefully in my sleep 
the chiromance was wrong 
elysian paralysis  
Ive killed her her laughter 
clattering against the mirror 
reflecting the insanity of her shattered mind 

Tuesday, 9 April 2013
22.43  misc draft 
self conscious 
and then you get 
caught up on ego and superego ... 

jazzy cringe 

actually an old flame 
made a surprise guest appearance 
there ... probably i will tell 
you in a few months ... 

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id like to be able to 
really enjoy myself Scarey
the way you do seem really blissful 
in your own skin ... 

blissful in your own skin 
blissful in your own skin  

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something else to 
do for charity perhaps 

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operation budgerigar ... 
anyone help me out there .... 

all that valuable stuff going to waste .... 

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I've cricked my neck 

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and i feel 
like a little girl 
in your arms your precious child ... 




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Tuesday, 9 April 2013

yous are not welcome to watch the bag lady having a wank
my feelings don't trust me they think 
they want to perform 
stuck in a rut 
it snagged my ego 

actually the emotional 
connection was good there 
in spite of being assaulted by a 
flatmate jeering and jerking making frying fumes 
on purpose ... i don't really want to live here any more ... 

he's just so beautiful with horrendous 
adult child issues 

the impact is like 
something kicks you from 
behind from the coccyx with such 
force you find yourself trying to resist 
the blow while at the same time craving the ecstasy 

i don't think you can beat Scareys kiss its like 
having a catfish in your mouth ... 

hissing sea evil crazy 



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Tuesday, 9 April 2013

sacred fool beyon the why 
hunger strikes more painfully 
giving more gores

severe military fever 

she cut off her ear and hung it 
from the other one 

lampooned 
she dances herself 
into a rhythmic frenzy 

demonic visions
threw her from a bridge
into the asylum 

her mind rotted 
the train was full of 
dynamite and it really was 
she wanked herself into a depression 

hallucinatory insanity, persecution mania
recovery no longer to be expected
she died of smallpox and consumption 

there was too much cross talk 
at the meeting  

the occult is not insanity 
except where is includes blood lust and virgins
witch religion is that 

you are only insane if you are convicted
for your irrational convictions 



23.20  9.04.13.

Tuesday, 9 April 2013
God died and was born again as the son of Jesus

and of course he has a sister 

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Scarey what to do about Gods sister .... 



9-10 April 2013 

there are cracks in the wall .... they 
don't mean anything

chews lip 

people might think I'm gay .... 

eats finger  

chews finger off  

Tuesday, 9 April 2013
00.20

omg hey that road right ... 

is somewehre i don't want to talk about ha ha 


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adult child Scare ... of dysfunctional/addicted parent 

sees present through lens of past 

feels ignored 

usually undervalued but you seem to 
have sorted that bit yourself  

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im so sorry your stepfather thought 

you were lying Scarey thats really terrible 

sometimes that hurts more than the thing 

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00.37

hang on a minute my ex husband 

is delivering a chemical assault via the neighbours and i gotta do something about it .... 

he's from the military you know 
he thinks that equipment is there for him 
to gun down all his ex partners and make them break the law and stuff 

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the only good thing Scarey was you had a strong 
spirit to know that it was wrong 
what the boy was doing 


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that uncle of yours is a bit of a mixed 
bag isn't he i feel sure he did something 
to sort out the first man you know the priest ... 

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ok ill tell you what happened in that road you mentioned right 

now this is very difficult for me 
but i had my one and only crush on a girl ... 

can you imagine me having a crush on a girl ... 
why that girl should be the only person to inspire me in that 

way i still know her actually 
i think cus my mum had just died 

otherwise I've been as straight as um 
as straight as a young stag or something 


cashew ... will you stop hacking in and altering stuff thankyou ... you are not welcome to watch films of me either ... please use your own material ... if you want to buy something please contact lucie.xxxxx@gmail.com

Tuesday, 9 April 2013


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time warp 
wavy hazy wobbly lines on the telly 


00.48

picking a bone 

messing the carpet 


1.01. am 

Scarey  ... Fritzle Enders and Bookleaf are chemically assaulting me like my 
home is a gas chamber 

Bookleaf is currently president of the whole world 
although she can only think of British security in isolation from everyone else 
and talks right out of her arse 

you know thinks we should not have gone into Iraqu 
and that nut kin is a nutcase 

and then is right up his arse when it comes to preserving her community cohesion plans 



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you know i can't actually concentrate properly with this much poison in the air 

which is the whole idea i guess 


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we might be vegetarian Scarey but are we cannibals 

well i am not actually but i like try to go that way 

Scarey have you ever eaten a whole human 


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this ego thing i haven't seen it 
for a while you know its like suddenly you 
see yourself from the outside and think hey people are looking at me 

one of the advantages is a mental illness where you don't 
see that for like years and years are just totally 
on the inside with feeling things 

and you Scarey are very inside with your feelings 
which is good ... very strong spirit 

and then someone says hey 
those are great feelings all suddenly you go all geraldine hat ha ha 

one reason i don't read all that much stuff ... 





Tuesday, 9 April 2013

I jus want to cuddle you so much 
it really hurts 

2.52am 



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actually one way is to shut up isn't it Scare ....  
its like also I've got this emotional bank account that is 
well stocked from being so withdrawn ... 

and if i take it out and spend it runs out ... 
and then you get the cave thing 
crab thing i have to be hidden away 

2.25am 

Scarey you know Chuck is trying to find 
a local person to chat me up and jump me right ... 

like if I'm in a certain type of mood i might think well this is real 
and maybe its better this way ... 

you get me ... Scarey can you explain this ego thing does that 
bother you if you get self conscious in a positive way that actually spoils your feelings ... 

oh yes you said so ... 


Tuesday, 9 April 2013
2.46am 

and then we got Grace and Delilah to sort out ... 
can you thank Jewel for the feedback for me Scarey 
I'm working through it with her in not easy stages and thanks 
for looking after him ... you wanna keep Delilah for a bit i think 
don't you which is ok ... they said you could mend him a bit first ...