Finches Claw extracts

and your body being shaped by the experience the sharp edges chipped away
(half asleep an dreaming)
like you've died and have come back to haunt the place
from a different
plane just not really all there
like as if you're behind the bushes watching people or something
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i think its coming back to me now there was like an explosion of emotion in my chest
with the light and quite traumatising and then thinking yours fine
when you are not
like you do
like as if there
was a nuclear holocaust
an you're sort of singing along
the road with your back all burned
as if everything was fine ...
pretty much out of it all day a lovely helpless sensation
an there was that feeling of two wolves clawing all over
each other
i did get flames
of light an a slight boner
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they promised her afterwards a blanket food and a television
I don't recommend that
it was very unpleasant indeed
a sacred jellyfish as yet untouched
the subject of whispers
a terror suspect was detained without trial or warning
i experienced yours
there were wild cats screeching
it was a tough climb

14.18 30.05.13.


20.52 22.05.13.
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my heart is kind of doubled up with cramp
lanced blowtorched skin
n all these robot actresses keep on trying to poke you ...
being hurled over a mountain of trash
the wind whining round it in great searing spirals
stabbing a nasty
giant boil all blistering sore and lacerated

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16.05.13.
musskiss
n then he came into my room and said he was going to teach
me something
an i didn't know what he was doing ...
Im going to stop you though half way between lurching and
biting ... like do you
think we might
be rushing things ...
music
an i dont remember doing anything particularly strenuous did i ...
n my lips are swollen and peeling again like they are going numb from
radiation
mucis
and the same food tastes completely different
yeah and i just feel
like bound and gagged like
im not allowed to express how i feel ... ...

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you know an if we was just allow to be on our own
an i don't want them to have my birdsong see n i was singing to Scarey like a bir
an i can't remember is now
an i warbled like an alien chile n i was all gooey
you know and i feel like Scarey is really there for me like i could turn to him with any problem
including this one ...
cus i really want what we had
11.01am
an the thing about
Scarey is how i feel afterwards
is more poetic and my pictures actually look more alien see
13.05.13.
oh they were nigh birds ...
an i dreamed i was recording these birds from another planet
my heart still
fitting an i thought about how he felt
and then i was like
adrift with malaria ... delirious
and the boat cocking and stuff ... and
you actually smelled vomit as you wee thrown
under again by another wave ... and they are still going off
couple of hours later theers another explosion in the basement and one on the first floor ... and
you're like crawling to get out ... n
this energy shoots up like a
hydraulic jet ... phaser pulse rifle
that ripped me open like my chest was torn and a
bluish light with white sparks
like my guts had been lazered out tazered
an now i feel very sick .. .
a fire in the cellar
the hot wind exploded in the lung
causing vertigo and loss of balance turning circles in the air i jumped round
trying to make a get away
like as boiling water poured into the fuse box

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isn't that going to hurt what if it kills me Scarey
that place with the vultures an the deserted beach and stuff isn't
it and all seaweed there
and the menacing sky
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yeah some of it could look dull if you are emotionally desensitised ...
i actually have amnesia about that one ... you know it took me somewhere
... hey it took me somewhere
that I'm afraid to look at its jus so beautiful it breaks my heart
to look at it ...
like the piranha it hurts ... an its gonna kill me
so thanks for the complaint
without which i might not have gone ...
an there are other people i like nearly as much
and could be happy with
you know an there is a place that is beyond music or pictures
or anything
00.52 7.05.13.
why Scarey
because he's like a parent
and a child rolled into one ... tha
is very advanced in emotions an can
show me things ... is good at making links
an mediating and stuff its like emotionally Im
getting alot more from him than i would get elsewhere
an cus i love him more than anyone else
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his toddler was driving him nuts swearing and dark thoughts sleep deprived
anxious and gullible
00.32am 1.04.13. © Lizarikk
white noise from the appliances
like the loud heartbeat inside the womb rocking the sea
facilitated by the darkness
nobody comes to hear my cries
an i lie there with my pain all alone screaming nobody takes away my pain
it shatters the crystal tourmaline of night in the flickering
candle light licking up the bed


clutching my heart i reach for a blanket that wraps me like the crib
that holds me in its song as i howl
for a mother long since dead
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Sunday, 28 April 2013
the glug of hunger
the raw stubble of a soul
that ploughs in deep roughing up the thigh a world that is flawed and absurd
creation fell into a corrupt state
the chain of suffering and imperfection
the shock of an unusual and blasphemous explanation an infant bonding with a stem
turning into leaves
the resin of dark wood
the howl of a strangled puppy
emanating from a branch like a pool of molten glass
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25.04.13. 8.30pm misc draft
my head feels
like a trampoline
with the notes bouncing
on it slowly like a skin ... and
suddenly weightless floating in slow
motion ... like you do like that piece of
shrapnel moving slowly past the sun ... and
then i seem to turn into an amplifier like a echo chamber
just a boom box for the sex hop wah wah that is not music the pelt is my inside out organs expose glistening to receive the sounds gurgling glugging sounds
from an alien place ... my heart curdled
like it scrunched up an all my innards crunched ... your dirty filthy ...
an yeah the
sky is celebrating
the crown jewels are in
a cabinet in emergency break glass an
the river of love flows on through the light storm


chords that bubble and swell
viscous loops
anthemic wordless conch
that swells my heart bending the air the music speaks
like the words of cats
looking into its eyes
it purrs and rolls on its back
it howls for me and runs away when i chase it
bending my thoughts
talkin just to me
makin love to ma mind running its fingers through my hair round my achin head ...
planting little kisses
on the crown
tracing my skull
strangled loops reedy croon pulling at the tides
how it pours slinky
into a glass
smooth rich heavy honey oozing over the top
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and the sky is bright white
squeezing the heart muscles like an accordion
pushing the buttons
11am misc draft
smokey smooch
vampire organs pulling the heart strings
i glug it down

great gulps of music down the gullet
that sings my heat
24.04.13.
Wednesday, 10 April 2013
love smashing into itself
that was one
of those car crash things
you know where you are thrown out
of your seat the floor kicks you into the windscreen
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Wednesday, 10 April 2013
love smashing into itself
that was one
of those car crash things
you know where you are thrown out
of your seat the floor kicks you into the windscreen
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00.59 11.04.13.
bit of a crab thing too like your sitting on something in the water trying to
dig it out of the sand
and then blasted out of the water
and it keeps biting you or maybe a lobster
pinching thing
so theres is
cobra , fire breath .. .


and now crab, impact, crash and crunch
are different types of orgasm and that light trance maybe a jelly orgasm , fever, coma ,
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well anyway lets call that a hallucinogenic orgasm I'm surprised there are not more names
to look up ...
and then theres the balloon type
where you are like Jewel said a balloon that doesnt go down !
you know sometimes you just sort of hang there
like as if you are just turned into spirit
and gas just floating with your arms like of wobbling in the air
and i feel the helium and hydrogen coming back in now boing
you know and to feel you putting your feelings in me like that
is the best way to get them
the grip of love that locks on to love and makes a binge of love
a greedy pawing love selfish hunger
that licks the spoon and sucks on
love and rolls it round the tongue squeezing
its own love ... all over the lovely stick of love ...
yum spilling over
and then all this love builds up in the bottle neck
violent redox
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22.04.13. 00.48am


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he didn't talk gaelic to you no he did me though
looking right down inside you ... a sharp intake of breath contraction rings
similar streaks in the eyes of a man he was treating for a broken leg
and the eyes of an owl
there were
some flashing lights there and a
cutting feeling ... and then my mum phoned ...
the music is dribbling down the walls like monster play slime

i don't even really want to think about that or to think about thinking about it
then again if i was to not
think about it ...
can you call
off your dog please
Im trying to get the maggots off my crutch
and I can smell the fear in your nose ...
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Scareys music meltdown
separation, calculation, trepidation, jubilation
a film without music can't ever be scary
And maybe I'll play a song that gets you, that you get, that is yours
he started throwing himself around the room in a furious, jumpy dance
what I do to sabotage
he played it again and again and again
that aarrrrrggggh noise makes me feel brilliant I'm a firestarter
unguhhhhh ungggggg
16-17 April 2013
Scarys music simmer
16-17 April 2013

whacked up the volume... But I had to stop listening gulping sobs on the 159 are OK
but not if you're out of tissues
and have to use an empty Tangfastics packet
to mop your snot
an instant joy kick for me
a rush of adrenaline and fight-f**k energy makes me wanna drive my car into a brick wall you became a part of me a part of me
gorgeous
i couldn't quite accept it
i took the song and hugged it close
mixed up with that music it moulded itself around me i understood the language and i sang back to it
that unravelled my feeling unravelled
my feeling ...
grimey tracks
crackling like that burning oil
on the wrapper the smoke hitting me in
the stomach ... if you don't wanna party don't bother ...
00.39am 17.04.13.


and since when are pop
stars not shagging their teenage fans and groupies ...
bit of a hornet that one ...