jupitersterrain four

15.15

i mean i feel quite ashamed of my history 

as it is ... 

intimidated 

I always have to be the one to back down and shut up 

because there are insane people around 

i have to be the one to swallow it 

three weeks ago ... 

this is the end of the world 

where we come to talk about masturbation ... 

13.41

it just really hurts when i hear things like that

i feel hurt

it gives me flashbacks to when i started losing my mental health 30 years ago

and my alcoholic relative telling me i was bonkers

you know, and people being sectioned who were the sane ones

is the kind of association that it triggers in me ...