5pm
the meeting tonight was GINORMOUS !
never seen it so huge
and i could still think of people that weren't there ...
anyway there was no cross talk today
there was an incredibly long silence
in which i decided i was passionate to say this :
' when i first started to lose my mental health
my alcoholic father told me i was bonkers
and how much that hurt ... '
P said that her sister is
'mad as a box of frogs'
but i didn't react to her
i do think its like swearing
in that its a way of dumping the insanity outside yourself ...
the insanity/agression is over there
its in you , or my sister or the meeting
anywhere other than myself ...
anyway this was not a boxing ring
this is judo ...
disarming your opponent by making yourself vulnerable
it comes with alot of experience.
A man came up to me afterwards
and said what a lovely person i am !
i feel that i have been heard and validated
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