Collusion

7pm  Scareys quality time 

SAA addicted to the high, the tease, we abused others 

and we abused ourselves ... 


I think my heroin was a feeling of concussion

from the domestic violence ... 

addicted to the shock, the danger, to despair

and self annihilation ... 


getting kicked out of places, hmmm .... 

fighting outside a pub, sitting too long over a coffee with Fox, 

absentmindedly walking off with good from the supermarket , 

banned from internet forums ... 

for 'flaming' , 

I couldn't see if for the life of me ... 

the newspaper forums are a veritable first fire of flames 

I believe i was banned by people who envied my open-ness 

and self -expression ... 


standing up to authority ... 

at one of my rehab groups , a more experienced member 

criticised how i was doing my service . 

He sounded very authoritative. 

Turned out on making further enquiries, he was wrong ... 

that is was just his disease talking ... 


charming the corporate terrorists ... 

e.g. I was caught masturbating on the bus, 

albeit with a coat over my lap ... 

the police were obviously quite charmed and touched

by my sexual endeavours

and the sincerity of my pursuit ... 

and let me off with a caution ... 

i also tape recorded them and put the track up on Sound Cloud ! 

Later that year someone said i had masturbated 

in a public part of the psychiatric hospital

which i most certainly did not ...