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world finance has changed
in that the billionaires
are helping to fund the changes going on
which means that there are alot of unelected people
in charge of our future
I'm always looking for a loophole
I've entertained myself in other ways
sometimes with an urge to exercise
late at night
the harpie Nic and cloud clockwork and bisto are not welcome to read my blog or use me in any way , there are thoughts in your own head huns
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ok you lot says the earth
have a little holiday
and think about what you're doing
for the planet
the birdsong in spring
that sings of hope
different from the melancholy
call of winter
whats happened to the war zones ?
the knife crime ?
all cured by the virus ?
in those moments
when i free myself
from the grip of your passion
i can fly free
free from the bonds of love
people are smiling and waving
as thought the human spirit
cannot be defeated
ok you lot says the earth
have a little holiday
and think about what you're doing
for the planet
the birdsong in spring
that sings of hope
different from the melancholy
call of winter
whats happened to the war zones ?
the knife crime ?
all cured by the virus ?
in those moments
when i free myself
from the grip of your passion
i can fly free
free from the bonds of love
people are smiling and waving
as thought the human spirit
cannot be defeated
word jam : our relationship is in lockdown
let him do it in cold blood
its a way to bring us law and order
and who's to say thats wrong ?
so if this is orchestrated
by a global elite
then how is it
we are still at war with Germany ?
my mind tends to go
where it shouldn't go
fame is a thing of the past
meanwhile, hundreds of people
are still at risk from flammable cladding
we'll fight them in the pubs !
to get the nation moving as one
big business is paying the cost
of getting every one on board
Brexit has affected
all the markets in the world
a prison of our own making
i have to give her my beloved
because she wants to have
a second child together with him
and because our leader says so
they've found a weather window
sometimes there are flashing lights
if you want flashing lights
you need to take some time over it
shall we go back to the security of our ex partners ?
is it compliance or consent ?
then again i can't cope with his bit on the side
she's alot more powerful than me
social engineering, body shaming,
i feel as though I'm being objectified
you're using the situation
to make very personal insulting remarks
stereotypes and character judgements about me
I'm going to make a complaint about it
to instill a sense of obedience
do I have to comb my scruffy hair
keep a distance
why is your hair a mess ?
not sure which way up the world is
maybe i will wake up in hospital
in a few days
with a nurse telling me
i imagined this weird virus
taking over the world !
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its a way to bring us law and order
and who's to say thats wrong ?
so if this is orchestrated
by a global elite
then how is it
we are still at war with Germany ?
for the 3rd time
my mind tends to go
where it shouldn't go
fame is a thing of the past
when you say global finance has changed
i think you mean big business has started
to pay some of the governments costs
to free up the government
from being answerable to the public
transparent ? accountable ?
its a way to bring us law and order
and who's to say thats wrong ?
so if this is orchestrated
by a global elite
then how is it
we are still at war with Germany ?
for the 3rd time
my mind tends to go
where it shouldn't go
fame is a thing of the past
when you say global finance has changed
i think you mean big business has started
to pay some of the governments costs
to free up the government
from being answerable to the public
transparent ? accountable ?
Thursday, 26 March 2020
Tuesday, 24 March 2020
Monday, 23 March 2020
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pretty sure I will be questioned tomorrow I town
I will be singled out for looking different
I will threaten to complain about their treatment of me
all very scary , I must have courage !
keep a distance
why is your hair a mess ? what are your disabilities ?
you're not allowed out
I'm going to be appealing this
you're giving me some sort of character assassination
you're objectifying me
its discrimination
Saturday, 21 March 2020
word jam : before the breakdown
psychosis is quite a drug like experience sometimes,
with heightened senses
and yes a sense that its a spiritual experience
with rich deep colours and very intense feelings
i was smiling about something else
when he walked past
how is a man supposed to love
if he cant have all his feelings ?
always having to Google everything
the reptilian brotherhood
asserting itself
over the hippy dippy word
funny how England and Italy
are in lockdown
when they are the ones
fighting the fascists
a proper old school party man
staying connected
the energy of the earth
passing between us
some dumb virus
people reported fever and sweating ,
feelings dizzy
and having to lie down and curl up
i am a robot or a tree
our relationship is in lockdown
doing love to someone
open up, open out !
woman up !
i touch my face
imagining its your skin
i can't do it with all these people watching
yes i know i put it out
but then i wanted to
woman as instigator
men are like wolves ...
so say the hexes
sometimes theres a proper ending
and then you feel you need
another proper ending
does a woman even know when its finished
because there are many stages
prior to the breakdown
which are very fulfilling
Thursday, 19 March 2020
word jam : someone always has to give in
i travellled in time
when i made the memory black and white
i was able to move things
the state flexing its muscles
an attack on the humanitarian world
one day these things will all be taken down
history will be unmade
Leonardo , Michaelangelo all gone
the cynical world
trying to prove there are no spirits
ethnic cleansing
i suppose ill get arrested
for blowing my nose
robots
causing the heart to splinter
the brutality of it
sucking out your soul
there is another world
where we are unharmed
i have to give her my beloved
cus she's high profile
cus she's the mother of his child
cus the committee says so
and cus she has the technology
to rebuild herself
someone has to give in
and that someone
always has to be me
the vibrations could be felt
from miles away
legs shaking and kicking
an explosion of light
treats and rewards
a voodoo doll
brandishing sticks
a haunted doll
the inside is detached
red eyes flashing
laughing and laughing
rocking, waving its arms
music playing inside me
drumroll
like a thundery storm
waves lashing
it is like a blinding light,
caramel melting everywhere
oozing out of my body
shaking and heaving in spasms
as I'm thrown forward
and side to side ,
i become very tense,
stress increasing with every breath
to be honest
I've faked it sometimes
not entirely
but it was only in the early stages
i only faked it
when i was in love with a guy
and didnt want to lose him
whereas other times it ends with a stranger
when it ends its like a fan belt snapping
after the thaw
the breaking of a tree trunk
Thursday, 12 March 2020
Tuesday, 10 March 2020
Saturday, 7 March 2020
word jam : a famous lamp post
as an empath
I'm hearing frequencies
that other people don't
like projecting it outwards
I can understand that with voices
bit more difficult when its making whole people
talking about you in the street
like some sort of a hologram ?
so apparently I've alienated everyone !
i who am a middle class tourist
a famous lamp post
and yet still she desires me
with a fiery passion !
there is always another girl
after your guy
i can't compete with that
soemone has to back down
and it always has to be me
i tripped in my dancing shoes and fell
this weekend gonnna be a bit ova mud bath
i think aliens are humans
that have discovered another world
outside of our conditionings
and what we see on the media
what if that other world
were actually the real world ?
have you ever kissed a stranger ?
squealed, or screamed the place down ?
he wasnt my doctor
if you met someone at a party
you would not have to leave
because they are someone else's doctor
i saw a shooting star fall
when i wasnt looking
n thats not the rough sex defense
seasick
only by going with the spin
can we come back into balance
the swirling , rocking feeling
of being a female
do you like empathy ?
as if dreams were just here to frustrate you !
Friday, 6 March 2020
Thursday, 5 March 2020
060320
i think aliens are humans
that have discovered another world
outside of our conditionings
and what we see on the media
what if that other world
were actually the real world ?
have you ever kissed a stranger ?
squealed, or screamed the place down ?
he wasnt my doctor
if you met someone at a party
you would not have to leave
because they are someone else's doctor
i saw a shooting star fall
when i wasnt looking
i think aliens are humans
that have discovered another world
outside of our conditionings
and what we see on the media
what if that other world
were actually the real world ?
have you ever kissed a stranger ?
squealed, or screamed the place down ?
he wasnt my doctor
if you met someone at a party
you would not have to leave
because they are someone else's doctor
i saw a shooting star fall
when i wasnt looking