the golden switch
what brings you warmth
guy no 1 keeps telling me im posh
and im getting a bit sick of it ...
im one of the illests
and currently barely able to function
this has all been orchestrated
by the golden switch
during the small hours
guy number one already knows how
to diversify his investments
although he is not long out of a real life relationship
with someone from our social circles
might need more time on that one
i think guy no 2 is emotionally dependent
on his cam girl
in spite of being great at business !
k so to muddy things a bit
there is guy no 1
and guy no 2 who is my ex
guy no 1 actually gets me to ' open up '
more than he opens up himself
which makes me naive
lockdown is a living death
my ex boyfriend has organised a financial review for me !
as a way to bring us closer ...
strip jack naked
with all my weakness exposed
its like being in a war
where you are reduced to the absolute basics
just surviving from one moment to the other
waiting for the bomb to drop
the thing with the painting
is I put everything into it
trying to go forwards
and now I'm pulled in 2 directions
Avalon or the Egyptian otherworlds ?
Mag Mell the plain of delight
think i have been there
portugal ?
writing, quill, feather,
pelted with stones ,
overwhelmed , this brown envelope seems very timely
as a punishment ,
reminding me that im scum
I feel like I'm being coerced actually
about something else going on in my life
I dont think people realise
what is going on with the occult at the moment
its gathered force on the internet
and forms a powerful sea
with choppy waves
and tidal waves,
tsunamis and the like
especially how it affects peoples relationships
the moon sits in an icy glass lake
streaked like a fish bone
a doorway to the mystical
floating in space
all bitterness gone
ive opened out another cave
an area of tension
blasted to smithereens
why do people not do this ? !
and what a mess
do we even like each other
from different camps
if you look at it that way
one of the alternative buoys
thats close to his heart
im thrashing about like a fish
arching my back
high tensile strength
round and round
like pulled out on a rack
like an elastic band
the balloon swells and pops
bang
and all light pouring out
and sparkling glitter everywhere
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