word jam : the dream state

 


i phone 12 ?
EYELASH phone 13

the invisible hand
looks highly visible to me !

an itch we are not supposed to scratch

the sound of water reminds me of something
which i cant mention here

and in my younger more adventurous days
there was an episode where I was with a guy doing stuff
and a mutual friend of ours took photos

all in the spirit of fun I assumed
 
and we had a laugh about it
but she said there is a film of me
that i havent seen !

n she is the most fun person you could possibly imagine
but I know she wouldn't give me that film
it didn't seem cool to ask

maybe thats why I still think people are filming me
 
n he doesnt need my permission
to go out with friends his own age  

maybe i just cant be with anyone 
because guy no 2 will start hurting people
 
n how many of your internet friends
are the authors identity?  

k now she is ok she just lost her internet connection ...

k now guy no 2 
has kidnapped a young mutual friend
either that or her pets 

thing is i dont know ...
i have to see what happens
i havent met you yet
 
k so guy no 3 found the best meaningful treasure
guy no 1 is best in bed

and guy no 2 knows how to look after my interests

no worries 

not if the other person is able to say 
that they are feeling shy too ! 

i am not an axe wielding maniac 

i am not a ' split personality ' 

if youre patient with me 

i might be able to work out what to say

I could see when he came round 
that the handyman thought I was wierd
and I maybe did look weird because 
I had just had to have my financial review 

plus one of the neighbours made a vomiting noise 
which I wonder is a tradesman code for 
' this client is a bit coooked ' 

resulting in my being asked for payment in advance !

sometimes if you tell someone
or post something
it makes the thing not happen

n yeah I like cooking sometimes 
if I'm in the mood but it makes so much mess ! 

I cry out in the night when I wake up in pain 
so I know what you mean 

and my movement is jerky 

I think the neighbours see me as a bit strange
 
the dream state or drug like state of psychosis
makes us daydreams and nightmares
to stop our awareness
of painful reality
 
k more of recent spam actresses outdoors this week 
 
top secret underground carpark
its an axe , how long do you think shes got
just a checkup and you dont have to do it
see what the vet says
 
n when you go on a thrill seeking ride
you get an orgasm in your chest