jupitersterrain four

12.03pm

dear Ben 

Im in alot of pain after being shouted at by yourself 

and for that I forgive you ... 

I forgive that you wont go to the recovery meetings 

that are all around you 

that you wont do it for me and for your children ... 

that you are killing yourself 

that you don't care how we feel about it 

or what will happen to us without you being in our lives 

that drugs mean more to you than we do ... 

that you manipulate us for money 

to feed your habit, 

you try to put spokes between us to gain control 

destroying everything in your wake 

because of your belief in drugs 

and you don't care how we will feel if you die 

that you believe it is all other peoples fault 

dads fault, my fault, your ex partners fault , 

you even put spokes between me and our aunt 

and for all this i forgive you ... 

love Sis