jupitersterrain four

i keep bumping into that girl who was sitting with the rook

you know the one, the rook sat under her umbrella for 5 hour

and i dent have the camera.

and then giving her a couple of quid when i have seen her

although white she looks very 'spiritual'

with long dirty fingernails and two coats on

huddled over a book

I think it was Richard Dawkins she was reading

although id dint write it down

and now feel i need to go and ask her what she was reading

and give her some more money

Im also aware that i am a vulnerable person

and that the friendship could be dangerous,

she might be on drugs

and i could end up giving out information about myself

which i then regret.



One of her alcoholic friends was in the day centre recently

and i could end up with alot of Ben- like characters in my life

at a time when i am feeling quite vulnerable in my recovery

having made a fresh start out of hospital

with a blank slate almost

and yet i am drawn to this girl .. quite young, in her twenties i think,

and keep; needing to ask her questions

about the bird, who she has seen more than once,

her books and what else i don't know ...