3pm
the prescription came through the door
i was surprised to see it there at all
the harpie Nic and cloud clockwork and bisto are not welcome to read my blog or use me in any way , there are thoughts in your own head huns
1.30pm todays news group
the Tories found it threatening
when Russell Brand went round to Ed Millibands house ...
the right to flee from danger.
decoys, mules, smuggling , restorative justice
a beef burglar
I have felt sometimes oppressed in this country
but on a different scale
eg under Gordon Brown
with the community cohesion bandwagons
you still have to be quite brave to speak up ...
the Tories found it threatening
when Russell Brand went round to Ed Millibands house ...
the right to flee from danger.
decoys, mules, smuggling , restorative justice
a beef burglar
I have felt sometimes oppressed in this country
but on a different scale
eg under Gordon Brown
with the community cohesion bandwagons
you still have to be quite brave to speak up ...
Wednesday, 29 April 2015
Tuesday, 28 April 2015
12.30pm
I was sprayed with sulphuric acid outdoors
while a young man said ' Caroline Lucas'
this was also from Enders, one of her favourite punishments
because it harms my voice ...
they kind of sneaked this through knowing the committee
would not be all that bothered
and because i have refused to leave Davision ...
I was sprayed with sulphuric acid outdoors
while a young man said ' Caroline Lucas'
this was also from Enders, one of her favourite punishments
because it harms my voice ...
they kind of sneaked this through knowing the committee
would not be all that bothered
and because i have refused to leave Davision ...
Art Whisperer vol 2
260415 5pm
apparently there is research
that says hugging releases endorphins
what do they do test your blood pressure ? in a lab ...
this is why things were better in the 60s and 80s
people had more contact with each other instead of talking through a screen ...
270415 1916
cue modern ballet choreographies
people trying to gesture through massive panes
with their hands flat on the glass
and large life size 'tablets'
where you are trying to read the gestures
of another dancer on the stage
apparently there is research
that says hugging releases endorphins
what do they do test your blood pressure ? in a lab ...
this is why things were better in the 60s and 80s
people had more contact with each other instead of talking through a screen ...
270415 1916
cue modern ballet choreographies
people trying to gesture through massive panes
with their hands flat on the glass
and large life size 'tablets'
where you are trying to read the gestures
of another dancer on the stage
Sunday, 26 April 2015
collusion
she would stroke his chest
and wrap him in a towel
as if he was just shipwrecked ,
and put him to bed
cradled in her arms
19.53
and wrap him in a towel
as if he was just shipwrecked ,
and put him to bed
cradled in her arms
19.53
250415 4pm
the noise from the neighbours
keeps me from creating an atmosphere for sex and meditation.
I used to play music alot until the dispute over the dog ...
and had a better connection
between meditation and sex
either with myself or other people ...
shame attacks
affirmations from Louise Hay
replacing parental approval:
' please could you not comment on my body '
they seemed to stop prodding me after that ....
the noise from the neighbours
keeps me from creating an atmosphere for sex and meditation.
I used to play music alot until the dispute over the dog ...
and had a better connection
between meditation and sex
either with myself or other people ...
shame attacks
affirmations from Louise Hay
replacing parental approval:
' please could you not comment on my body '
they seemed to stop prodding me after that ....
Saturday, 25 April 2015
Friday, 24 April 2015
rehab
180415 5pm
what we get here is unconditional love .. .
we've come here for the joy of being together
not to compete or to gain anything ...
what we get here is unconditional love .. .
we've come here for the joy of being together
not to compete or to gain anything ...
Thursday, 23 April 2015
Art Whisperer
230415
mobile phones have increased our level of servitude to work ...
vaulting ambition o'er leapt itself ...
2pm
Farage is more accessible
with advanced communication skills
more tolerant and able to connect ...
in his communication skills that is ...
************
before smart phones
people had more contact with each other
and its this directness and connection with other people
that makes the seventies and eighties so memorable ...
smart phones have made us very ill mannered ...
00.09. 240415
imagine Quadrophenia
or Kristiane F with smart phones ...
people having to stop every 5 minutes
in the middle of an adventure, to answer their phones ... !
mobile phones have increased our level of servitude to work ...
vaulting ambition o'er leapt itself ...
2pm
Farage is more accessible
with advanced communication skills
more tolerant and able to connect ...
in his communication skills that is ...
************
before smart phones
people had more contact with each other
and its this directness and connection with other people
that makes the seventies and eighties so memorable ...
smart phones have made us very ill mannered ...
00.09. 240415
imagine Quadrophenia
or Kristiane F with smart phones ...
people having to stop every 5 minutes
in the middle of an adventure, to answer their phones ... !
Wednesday, 22 April 2015
Tuesday, 21 April 2015
Art Whisperer / Collusion
23.30
puppy eyes
he proffers his paw
3pm
not to mention the advertising calls ...
Im not getting a smart phone
i value my land line ...
mobile phones have also made us lose our manners
its very rude to answer calls when talking to someone in the meat ...
220415 5.30pm
not to mention
people in meetings looking all surprised
by the sound of their meowing vibrating ringtone
having been asked specifically
to turn it off ...
schoolgirls scrolling away on the bus
like theres no tomorrow without a smartphone ...
puppy eyes
he proffers his paw
3pm
not to mention the advertising calls ...
Im not getting a smart phone
i value my land line ...
mobile phones have also made us lose our manners
its very rude to answer calls when talking to someone in the meat ...
220415 5.30pm
not to mention
people in meetings looking all surprised
by the sound of their meowing vibrating ringtone
having been asked specifically
to turn it off ...
schoolgirls scrolling away on the bus
like theres no tomorrow without a smartphone ...
Sunday, 19 April 2015
Collusion
13.31 190415
and to massage him
a journey into his flesh, his soul ...
19.33
his wet hair
like the straggly feathers
of a new born chick
and to massage him
a journey into his flesh, his soul ...
19.33
his wet hair
like the straggly feathers
of a new born chick
Saturday, 18 April 2015
Friday, 17 April 2015
Thursday, 16 April 2015
2pm 160415
Ed needs media training
like Andy Murray did ...
the justification for the Iraq war
apparenlty was that terrorists were spilling over the border
Maybe the Saudis treat their women
in an archaic way
but if we intervene then we are also interfering ...
and what really is the difference
between using the military presence and international policing ?
Ed needs media training
like Andy Murray did ...
the justification for the Iraq war
apparenlty was that terrorists were spilling over the border
Maybe the Saudis treat their women
in an archaic way
but if we intervene then we are also interfering ...
and what really is the difference
between using the military presence and international policing ?
150415 12.45pm
i thought surveillance cameras
were being used to view women in their bedrooms
so its like 'watch this ya bastards' ... !
with my grandmothers
its like i ve healed and I've got these lovely memories of them
so i feel them inside,
im not really talking about a ghost ...
the place where my mother should be
is a gaping black hole
that makes me vulnerable to addictions and dangerous people ...
' her victory makes her sisters defeat seem all the more bitter ' ... Paolo Coelho
I not only have survivors guilt around my mothers death
but also around my brothers addiction ...
12.20
i find that softening my gaze
and not trying too much i do the word search quicker
than i do using a methodical way ...
tied together with Ben
a little Buddha
tied down with other peoples needs
i thought surveillance cameras
were being used to view women in their bedrooms
so its like 'watch this ya bastards' ... !
with my grandmothers
its like i ve healed and I've got these lovely memories of them
so i feel them inside,
im not really talking about a ghost ...
the place where my mother should be
is a gaping black hole
that makes me vulnerable to addictions and dangerous people ...
' her victory makes her sisters defeat seem all the more bitter ' ... Paolo Coelho
I not only have survivors guilt around my mothers death
but also around my brothers addiction ...
12.20
i find that softening my gaze
and not trying too much i do the word search quicker
than i do using a methodical way ...
tied together with Ben
a little Buddha
tied down with other peoples needs
" Dear Ben
sorry if i havent always learned to respect your wild and beautiful spirit
as you know i am not always very well myself
especially just now they are trying to take me off the lorazepam .
Sometimes i don't have anything to give ...
Im hoping we will go for a coffee sometime with your son
maybe when i am feeling up to it
i will let you know
all the best with your mysterious journey in life
I couldn't pretend to understand you
and with age i realise more how little i know
and i always do love you
you matter very much to me and i don't want to lose you ...
that would cause me unbearable pain
love from Liz and Myra "
"I don't always know how to respect your wild and beautiful spirit
and i am not always well myself
especially just now they are trying to take me off the lorazepam .
Sometimes i don't have anything to give ... "
I sometimes feel jealous of him
like he's a really cool musician for instance
and very expressive with his feelings
very 'present' with other people
very funny , that sort of thing, life and soul of the party ...
I don't know, its a bit of step 4
sometimes i feel like I'm jealous of him
and then i patronise him as though i am superior
im a bit confused about this at the moment
because there are so many sick people in my life
that sometimes i have to patronise people
or ignore them, or give some indication that they are invading my space ...
ps very deeply ingrained conditioning this ...
like growing up in an all white community in London
you know, where i was a high flyer
i have a built in sense of superiority
coupled with a feeling of worthlessness
that comes from not understanding your true values ... lif
sorry if i havent always learned to respect your wild and beautiful spirit
as you know i am not always very well myself
especially just now they are trying to take me off the lorazepam .
Sometimes i don't have anything to give ...
Im hoping we will go for a coffee sometime with your son
maybe when i am feeling up to it
i will let you know
all the best with your mysterious journey in life
I couldn't pretend to understand you
and with age i realise more how little i know
and i always do love you
you matter very much to me and i don't want to lose you ...
that would cause me unbearable pain
love from Liz and Myra "
"I don't always know how to respect your wild and beautiful spirit
and i am not always well myself
especially just now they are trying to take me off the lorazepam .
Sometimes i don't have anything to give ... "
I sometimes feel jealous of him
like he's a really cool musician for instance
and very expressive with his feelings
very 'present' with other people
very funny , that sort of thing, life and soul of the party ...
I don't know, its a bit of step 4
sometimes i feel like I'm jealous of him
and then i patronise him as though i am superior
im a bit confused about this at the moment
because there are so many sick people in my life
that sometimes i have to patronise people
or ignore them, or give some indication that they are invading my space ...
ps very deeply ingrained conditioning this ...
like growing up in an all white community in London
you know, where i was a high flyer
i have a built in sense of superiority
coupled with a feeling of worthlessness
that comes from not understanding your true values ... lif
18.23
there is a committee decision
to deport Davision tonight
and force him back to his childs mother
I do not consent for my materials to be used in this
Im with Davision thanks ...
possibly the fib derailed the empty train at Brighton
this afternoon ...
they wanted me to take longer to get home ...
there is a committee decision
to deport Davision tonight
and force him back to his childs mother
I do not consent for my materials to be used in this
Im with Davision thanks ...
possibly the fib derailed the empty train at Brighton
this afternoon ...
they wanted me to take longer to get home ...
my brother ...
I sometimes feel jealous of him
like he's a really cool musician for instance
and very expressive with his feelings
very 'present' with other people
very funny , that sort of thing, life and soul of the party ...
he's like Kurt Cobain you know ...
very unique
and very different from everyone else in the family
and Kurt Cobain also killed himself with heroin ...
I sometimes feel jealous of him
like he's a really cool musician for instance
and very expressive with his feelings
very 'present' with other people
very funny , that sort of thing, life and soul of the party ...
he's like Kurt Cobain you know ...
very unique
and very different from everyone else in the family
and Kurt Cobain also killed himself with heroin ...
Sunday, 12 April 2015
Sorry to hear that you need to be with someone unavailable ...
and that you find rejection painful
maybe thats what I'm doing
partly as you say because of family patterns
and also in my case because I'm not really well enough for a relationship
and i don't know if i ever will be
so the internet thing kind of suits me that way
and that you find rejection painful
maybe thats what I'm doing
partly as you say because of family patterns
and also in my case because I'm not really well enough for a relationship
and i don't know if i ever will be
so the internet thing kind of suits me that way
Saturday, 11 April 2015
110415 4pm
my relationship
is like an emotional chess game
this time i don't feel abandoned or traumatised
just people seem to think I'm stronger than i am ...
how do you incorporate your fantasies about other people
into a committed relationship ?
are you really not going to act out at all ?
we can't meet at the moment
because of the position I'm in and the position he is in
it wouldn't be appropriate
I guess some people would call this an imaginary friend ...
I felt i had a positive experience with my sexuality this week
and this led to feelings of utter utter terror ...
as if people would attack me for feeling good about myself ...
my relationship
is like an emotional chess game
this time i don't feel abandoned or traumatised
just people seem to think I'm stronger than i am ...
how do you incorporate your fantasies about other people
into a committed relationship ?
are you really not going to act out at all ?
we can't meet at the moment
because of the position I'm in and the position he is in
it wouldn't be appropriate
I guess some people would call this an imaginary friend ...
I felt i had a positive experience with my sexuality this week
and this led to feelings of utter utter terror ...
as if people would attack me for feeling good about myself ...
9.30am
the fib honked outside my window
to indicate that it was they that made my advocate unwell ...
and have done the internet interference
the reason is that they want me to return my affections to Joseph Fritzle
he said he can kill people by messing about with them through the authorities ...
apparently the anglo american community have voted for this
and have given the fib a licence to dog me
the fib honked outside my window
to indicate that it was they that made my advocate unwell ...
and have done the internet interference
the reason is that they want me to return my affections to Joseph Fritzle
he said he can kill people by messing about with them through the authorities ...
apparently the anglo american community have voted for this
and have given the fib a licence to dog me
Thursday, 9 April 2015
23.46
I just had to re-start the router again
and make a phone call to BT
tomorrow i have to re-set the router apparently
i reckon someone is putting bugs down the line ...
this is a fib technique
apparently in this case supported by the British community
i also have cold sores
and wonder if Baskerville has been to see his rent boys ...
I just had to re-start the router again
and make a phone call to BT
tomorrow i have to re-set the router apparently
i reckon someone is putting bugs down the line ...
this is a fib technique
apparently in this case supported by the British community
i also have cold sores
and wonder if Baskerville has been to see his rent boys ...