jupitersterrain four

Dear Stepmother 

just to say that i do feel hurt

that you havent had time to speak to me.

I think its going on for about a month now .

We used to talk every week.



At the same time i don't really want this to be an obligation for you

another reason i feel hurt

is the idea that its an obligation you have to get round to.

That regular phone contact meant alot to me it seems

and in the absence of close friends and relatives living nearby

was a bit like a weekly coffee or visit.



i know I've got all these other things in place

i just wanted to express how difficult this is for me

and that it will take some getting used to



Are you sure its nothing to do with me ... ?

maybe you think i don't need it any more

because I'm getting better ?



i suppose i also don't want to be like Sarah

and asking people to justify themselves

hopefully its ok to express myself

in a non accusatory way ...