jupitersterrain four

 120820 2.50 am

so recently of course most of my meetings have been online

zoom, email forums, or phone


well with the exception perhaps of phone
im wondering to what extent this situation causes people
to be in performance mode ?

I noticed that I didnt speak up to someone on my 12 step meeting
where in real life I might have done
she said something to suggest
that everyone should like this heat wave !

will we feel the same way at Christmas I wonder ?
because my support groups have always been places
where people could express their feelings about anything
and in fact especially at Christmas

people express their discomfort
with awkward family gatherings

in order to heal themselves

when talking on a screen
might people unconsciously feel they are on television ?