word jam : the jaws of defeat


what I was feeling is someone else feelings !
and then i could see the off switch 
i could literally see a knob 

inclusivity
does not mean taking the locks off our doors
and being bosom buds with all and sundry

when push comes to shove we are all catholics

I think try not to worry about where you mind has gone
during a sexual fantasy
its a bit like dreams it can be very random sometimes
the mind tends to go where it should not go

this has all gone on in private for you
as part of you exploring your sexuality

i think a ' tacit complicity between peers '
if relied upon to facilitate cost cutting
will necessarily lead to the formation of service user ghettos
as it always has done
and with inherent disasters

but then who do i think i am to have an opinion !

yeah well the truth is I'm broken yet again 


and that might be the last time I have a bash at work 

I'm broken and all I can do is try to mend myself


nothing else 

I think its because I have a sensitive ' trait ' 



yeah I'm in the eye of the storm too 

if they stand under a star
they will miss the rain drops
sure a star be happy
to come down and play with your cat

I dont know if its reverse psychology

some people say its OK to date more than one person
until you have committed

I don't think I would do that
but a lot of people do

n yeah I went to a recovery meeting the other day in Los Angeles
I could see how frightened everyone was

just because someone puts a thing online
doesn't mean its fair game for all and sundry 

i have turned down the invitation
to act as a go between

i believe i have done this kindly and without malice
right now he is probably grappling with his feelings
but im trying to just sit with it

over time others have abandoned him as well
while expecting myself to keep in touch with him

hes been forced to go to recovery meetings by the police
but he actually just stood up in the meetings
and shouted abuse at them !

he worships a guru linked to drugs
i have cried to him and implored him to go to recovery
i have written his eulogy and handed it to him,

the cat was slinking around
looking very confident

i enjoy the sharper energy of men sometimes

I was frightened by a dog when I was four
and ever since then dogs have gone for me

my naivete is one of my charms

people find that time stops during meditation
so if time can stop and it can go forwards
it figures that it can also go backwards
time travel
if we can get past ground hog day
there might be some time to travel in

we have a load of new machinery
but i dont think human nature has changed that much

mystics claim that nothing ever changes 


that we are all in the eternal present 

so in that sense we are still fifty years ago 

my sister just confirmed
that she wants to kill me hoping to get my money

i always think something like a colonic
would take you back in time

The term "blind" comes from the fact
that the players are being forced to bet on their hands
without having seen their cards.
such as hold em

reminds me there was a type of gambling 


where you don't keep looking at your score 


I think it was part of poker stars

doctor doctor i feel like a dustbin

another molten lava guitar

and exploding atom
under intense pressure

theres something really magical about him
and he smells of washing powder

men are sick of being used as baby machines

all night long
like music that hits you in the back passage

my skin turned inside out
blasted to smithereens
whap whap like the tardis

a real head banger
bed post bump

im a bit ditsy in real life

like diving from a very high rock
into the deep end

i just think youre trying to squeeze
a square peg into a round hole

the lost key
climbing climbing

falling
claiming victory from the jaws of defeat