word jam : forbidden fruit pie

its just evolution which floors me as well sometimes
the gold watch should be sold
and the profits divided amongst his slaves !

the earth stopped running under my bare feet
hypnotised in a rigid trance
i was locked inside a transparent coffin

eyes scrunched up tight
dizzy like my head will burst any minute
concentrating intensely

leaking paranormal energy

20s Vaudeville fringe theatre
suddenly i was bolt upright in my coffin
eyeballs hanging out
celebrating my release

the audience tightened the noose
a large buzzsaw severed me in two pieces

just an illusion

my body jerks out of the coffin like a jack in the box

boing

the head hanging from a spring
long as the organs creepy

making the head bang against the wood

long ago

sometimes you see couples who conflict all the time
if anything it adds to their fun

conflict is not always a fight 



I remember going to Amsterdam with this other guy 


we stayed on a barge while we studied dutch design for a project
and bickered over it the whole time 

 

 
I've been to quite a few interactive workshops 

and learned things like ' owning our own feelings ' 

' responding rather than reacting ' 

sheep dog wild chase the pandemic is a right wing coup
of ' shoulds '

but the organism worked itself out over the night !
like the smiler ride at Alton Towers

n everybody go oooh oooooh
n everybody go ahhhh ahhhh ahhhh
after work monkey session

an underground lake opened up
where magical energy is hidden , ahem,

n chuckys spams had cancelled each other out
he sent some rough guys to harrass me in town

i wonder what the future holds for us
with so much uncertainty
n so much stigma

n i dont really trust anyone

the neighbours could hear me
n children running about
so a difficult time for it and more to come

disorientated , stupefied

a space ship of white light

a scream that rang like 
chimes of shattered alien glass bells

sexual empaths

its this empathy thing
like as if my soul takes a photo
of the other persons soul
and I can read, that she had a bad childhood
she's been made to shut up , to get on with her work goals
has chronic insomnia acute anxiety and mental exhaustion

I wrote all that down and felt better for it
rather than my carrying it around all day

well sod it I'm giving some honest feedback in the written work 

 person who wrote this course doesn't understand how ill some people are 


and I'm not sure you could get much iller than I was

i think ' you will own nothing ' is the right wing taking the mick out of the left



now i today have been collecting some more music tracks 
that sound like love, 

like for instance Jimi Hendrix 

its the melting sound of guitar 
sounds 

like somoenes heart and soul melting into the music

Riders on the Storm is like to me it shows you through your depression
to the love on the other side of it
rather than running away from the depression 


and women get performance anxiety too 



forgetting that its all a form of communication at its best ...

I remember groups of us as teenagers
would sometimes get hold of a magazine or a video tape for a dare
and because it was funny and entertaining
and crack ourselves up laughing

in some ways it has been educational
in my life and entertaining the old school of porn
where you would go into an adult shop
what I mean is in recent years there is something more sinister
with instant web cam services , revenge porn etc

sure the new order
can accommodate some tax hikes babyholics

what can i put in a forbidden fruit pie ?
spanish oranges brie grapes
yoghurt , chocolate ,
raspberries strawberries redcurrents