word jam : total wipeout

eclipse is very much puppetted by the author
as are most people
most people have made themselves busy
with work , family and study
and are not able to keep up
with the Authors independent tinkerings
at the dawn chorus

sitting with a feeling of failure
sitting with broken

the word backwards game
reflection backwards
 
i had to end it with somebody else 
because it was too intense
it was never going to happen

any old fantasy will do at that point
do you know what i mean ?

anyway im single
but it was all about you

n Dev taught me a thing or two
but hes gone now
Dev n Scarey always in my heart
a real head banger

the past IS important
and we need the space to heal from it
 
difficult feeling to sit on 
ive tried to work but im flat on my back
try not to react to it
i have not mastered a feeling until i can sit with it

total wipeout had me on my death bed
sometimes i have a blackout 
n the moon shone bright clear as a bell
 
but did react to it 

i did one without the button  
but then i wanted another one which didnt work out
so there may be something else in there

biological fascism
plot thickens , plot unknown ! 

sometimes in the scariest moments
you get a surge of adrenalin and a high



I dont think people realise how important it is
to give yourself pleasure 
to explore your feelings in private 


without worrying how other people feel 


and stay out of a harmful relationship 



you can explore your gender, 

your orientation and your preferences 


and nobody needs to know what you fantasied about ! 


all because of some silly Victorian taboo !

the cam girl is a very talented poet
 
Dont Tell The Groom
k so im in charge of the wedding
and i want a magician to make us both disappear
especially if the magician is one of my exes
and youd both have ex partners at the wedding
and at the end of it its called off
due to unresolved issues
like you've got to be constanty uncoupling

Chucky says he has set fire
to a piece of paper on his desk

and i dont agree that we have to be partners
for the sake of national security
we can do that as friends
 
seems more easy to believe in dark forces than light ones
 
being in a couple
is sooo last century
and all that coupliness
 
slapped on the face and thoroughly concussed
comatose 
 
you will own nothing and you will be happy
is something to do with crypto currency

like a rock n roller coaster
imploded like a demolition site
 
directivity
 
he says to his voices thankyou for sharing
 
fight or flight mode
living in the moment in a cold war zone 
spirit of the blitz , nothing left to lose ,
with people setting me up

born free

like being opened right up
nothing left to hide
escape from Alcatraz

why ?

this is all wrong for me

the birds are starting up
way before the dawn recently
in their chilly beds
 
theres like a drum skin in my body
 
bit coin, can people be bought
lock stock and barrel ?
that idea made me self harm once

dizzy sick and legless
the climax of death
 
its about partner control
and control in general
its about causing a crisis
so that you can be the hero of that crisis 
 
birdie shadow pie
 
the impact of the trauma
like a bullet through a trampoline

miss you blue surprise