hospital camp , rood food

200816   11.25 pm 

it was Christmas Eve ... 

they held me down and forcibly medicated me

because i wouldn't stop screaming. 

I was screaming because they were going to medicate me 

which i thought was death to my soul 

and i told them so ... 


when i told my brother he cried 

and gave one of the nurses an earful ... 


i must be quite wired and stressed 

as i am not gaining weight. 

this also happened in hospital 

when i was eating alot of chocolate without gaining ... 

i was constantly watching my back 

trying to stick up for myself 

against the other patients, and also the staff ...