hospital camp , new book ,

the searing pain in my hip 
when they try to roll me over 


260816   10.05 am 

the door is slammed shut ... 
Im in a high security unit
surrounded by people who have just tried to kill themselves. 
They are very angry .

My bags and pockets are searched 
for medications, and implements, and even plastic bags 
which are not allowed on the wards ... 

i watch people make further attempts in there 
one lady tried to strangle herself with a tourniquet 

The heating doesnt work 
it comes on in Summer and goes off in winter 
and my bedroom smells of ammonia ... 

Friday, 25 April 2014

pillowcase

from late 2013

i like the way those feelings flow, his hands inside my soul pulling at the branches shaking the leaves that massage the feelings like a ripe fruit sharing the juice ... a cocktail where we finally found our differences ... 


071213 830pm

my tongue hanging out feel vey sick ... n plunge into the ventilator the emergency team arrive n you feel the love of strong hands rolling you over onto the stretcher a blanket of bliss screaming in agony 

two songs were playing in my head ... concussion strapped in tight the vehicle rattling away into the night like that gypsy move at 5 years old a tunnel to nowhere my legs tightly strapped together kissing my hand 

liverpuddlian pudding liver puddinlian pud a milky thing in Liver pool like fish n chips 
hospital camp the culmination of all that went on in the 60s 

ambulance AnE amnesia , can i have a hug please they don't usually get asked that i could only remember two songs