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my songs are not uploading to google photos worried no 2 is up to something 

i think somebody might be trying to abduct Dev 

My feet are thus attired fighting off skin infections 

im supposed to file the skin and moisturise it which im not finding time for 

i mean where do you file your feet without making a mess ? ! 

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K thanks Dev I can write all day on Monday x 

Carb reduction a problem , short of serotonin 

im reading up on how to write 

Also Simon is aware he's being written about and alot of the book is about  him, 

Unique angle ? Posh girl falls for a werewolf and his abuse is what made her what she is 

Motivation ? To immortalise my experience and highlight mental health , the zeitgeist , the music , 

Not sure who the target audience is , people like me who like whacky stories ! 

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k so for me drug highs were nothing compared to thrill seeking highs , some of them dangerous and destructive in my younger years , danger and violence lots of adrenalin 

and only after the age of 50 did i learn to seek supervised thrills from fair grounds and paragliding 

n maybe no 2 was a honey trap of sorts i dont know , hes done alot for me , but is also controlling 

in my childhood you werent anybody unless you were getting divorced or living in sin 

Simon had traits of hippy ness , but a very clean one , very straight edge , an emo kid with an anorak , thats where i get the geek thing from , i really didnt expect to fall from him he wasnt my type

and the squats ? we had the ' riff raff ' in there , people from the streets , people of all races , guitars , percussion instruments , practically open door 

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and people trying to ' guru ' us , older people , we didnt seem to be afraid of anybody , made up beds for them, shared our food , smoked dope together , 

and i would get violently sick , not sure if it was because of the hygiene or some kind of spiking , i remember people putting their hands on my back to heal me as i screamed in sickness

particularly on three occasions 

brushes with death i thnk mostly around Simon , being chased with a pane of glass , being locked into his flat , threatned with scissors , and later on in life throwing myself out of a window , ive often felt close to death and found it comforting

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the zeitgeist was that everybody was fighting , there were drugs but id say that fights and arguments were more the in thing at the time , swearing , shouting , angst, drama , soap operas going on , intrigues , infidelities that sort of thing 

we spoke of spirutal things and listened to Mike Oldfield , Hendrix , Fela Kuti , Herbie Hancock, 

i was told i was talented at throwing parties , i didnt feel i was , a big crowd was difficult for me and i couldnt handle the drink realy or the dope which would make me paranoid 

but yes we had some good parties, doing freak out dances, the others standing in a circle while one person lets rips