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troubled 

we'll make an entrance 
with a honeysuckle trellis 
n untangle my brain 

n i don't want to go to work 
i don't even wanna be here 
struggling to find 
the will to live 

I've been dropped off on the moon 
so i clung to security 

n so I'm here 
just rotting away 
n how are you feeling today ? 

n the risk of serious injury 
so i became a zombie 

it was snowing 
and the world stopped for us 
just you and me 
and the silent flakes 

the rest of them disappeared 
and the only warmth was you 

these four walls
are closing in 

violently angry
my bad thoughts are taking over 

song : two damaged people

n I'm supposed to know 
the answer to this 
this very deep pain 
discarded like a husk 

two damaged people 
thats what i deserve 
so hard to accept 
when strangers are so kind 

you'd have to be quite sick 
to want to be with me 
its hard to open up 
and then to let you in 

im so scared 
hope that nothing else 
bad gonna happen 
did i ask for it 

im damaged goods
heart broken 
n I'm supposed to know 
the answer to this 

im so scared 

hope that nothing else 

bad gonna happen 

did i ask for it 

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violently angry 
n now I'm having bad thoughts

im damaged goods
n im scared 
that something bad 
is gonna happen 

n I'm supposed to know the answers
this very deep pain 

heartbroken , discarded 

two damaged people 
thats what i deserve 
you'd have to be damaged
to want me 

its hard to accept 
the kindness of strangers 
let alone to let you in 

song : mucked up in the head

really mucked up in the head 
on the wrong foot 
i can't think straight
n they've got me down 

where is the magic 
of my childhood
stolen from my heart 
ripped out from my soul 

no-one to talk to 
hello good morning 
how was your day 
sweet dreams good night 

so i just speak to myself 
squeezing out the life 
of every love I've known
n theres no-one here 

where is the magic 
of my childhood
stolen from my heart 
ripped out from my soul 

no-one to talk to 
hello good morning 
how was your day 
sweet dreams goodnight

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really mucked up in the head 
on the wrong foot 
i can't think straight 
n they've got me down 

where is the magic 
of my childhood 
its been stolen from my soul and heart 
i grant it 

im insatiable, 
n theres no one else 
to talk to on the planet 

n i bleed to death 
n squeeze the life 
out of every love that i have landed 




n my voice feels very stifled 
so i just speak to myself 

n no-one to talk to 
hello good morning 
how was your day ? 
sweet dreams good night 

140218 

really mucked up in the head 
on the wrong foot 
i can't think straight 
n they've got me down 

130218

profoundly abused 
the magic of childhood 
stolen from my heart
n theres nobody else 
on the planet 

insatiable 
bleeding to death 
squeezing out the life of it 
i strangle every love 

settle down and find a mate ? 
thats what animals do 

song : black valentine

n i can hear my heart 
learning to express 
tears they sting my eyes 
so alive n now he's gone 

struggling to crack an egg
this pain a scar that will not heal 

n i can't ask for help 
but how can i be strong 
their sarcasm it hurts 
this heart, this emo kid 

n i feel like I'm like a chair 
m alienated, cold inside 

oh Happy Valentine 
but am i welcome here 

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but how can i be strong ? 
n I've lost my soul to him 

happy Valentines 

n i can hear my heart 
I'm learning to express 
my tears are stinging my eyes 

rigid with shock 

so alive
n now she's gone 
struggling to use a can opener 
n im in pain   
a scar that wont heal 

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not sure if I'm welcome here 

can't stand mistakes 
or asking for help 

they tell me to be strong 
abandoned one 
sarcasm hurts 
this emo kid 

020218 

n i don't really wanna be here 
cus she's gone 
she has took me with her 
n im zick 

n fear is my default position 

this biting hunger 
alienated , cold inside, 
rigid with shock , traumatised 

that warm motherly feeling 
that i can't have 
i feel like an empty chair 

010218    6.13 pm

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