Thursday, 29 February 2024

 290224

spoit for choice ! 

a taxi driver went the wrong way 

then i went back to that porn film 

and entered it with a view 

to shagging the girl 

which i did for a bit 

i can do lesbianism 

with a man watching if you know what i mean 

this is going to give me a stroke ! 

 

 

 

 290224

No 6 and I are protecting the world from no 2 relationship with cloud 

Wednesday, 28 February 2024

 280224 

baby mother taking number 6 out of the country for mating duties

Chucky is on the warpath 

Saturday, 24 February 2024

 240224

The author thinks I'm responsible for her

She blames me for what her dad did 

She makes no effort to use professional help

Even though she has benefits to pay for it she spends the money in booze 

You rarely see her helping anyone 

And

I do apologise for how I handled things in 2008

When she got between me and no 2  I shouldn't have been annoyed about it

She wants reparations in the form of sex !

Offer of a coffee back off the table

Unless she can meet me half way , this is killing me 

250224

Apparently no 2 is to offer me a job

I'll get back to you about it

The idea of working is making me feel suicidal

but thanks for the offer 

I'll have a coffee with the author if she stops trying to chat me up

260224

She puts alot of time and energy into gathering information about me 

270224

She's now harrassing me online so the coffee is off the table 

280224

After talking with the author I feel like a piece of Swiss cheese 

Friday, 23 February 2024

 240224 , 230224


No 2 and baby mother have claimed responsibility for a decision where I can't spend a small inheritance on repairs to my home but must instead lose my benefits for a few months and then have to re-apply 

Apparently I was rioting

she says shes going to mess with my anti pschotic to give me something harmful  


 

I've moved my will

The author said that all male sex is rape

she uses coercion and fear to try to get me into bed , believes women should abstain from heterosexual relationships 

 id like to go to dignias 

I'll maybe speak to the author when I see her

220224 , she says she doesn't want to be forced to speak to me . I'll maybe just say hello and walk on then 

230224 , she says on the Internet she wants to be left alone . I'm open to speaking to her if I get the impression she wants me to 

I'm not offering to grovel or be her partner


Thursday, 22 February 2024

 220224

k so i thought about an american soldier 

and some more pornography from the past 

some of which i made myself 

i managed to steer myself back on course 

id not have been able to read the bible in those days 

back to the porn, back on course, back to the porn 

its not where im happy 

n you did say it was casual 

 

 

 

 

Tuesday, 20 February 2024

 200224

It wasn't about the drugs it was about the freedom

Started off as bpd 

I did so beat myself up 

210224

Not wanting to be here gives you an edge and an awareness of the unseen 

im a dead man walking 

 

 

 

 

Saturday, 17 February 2024

 180224

so he was blindfolded

while the other guy did me 

someone else had a gun

ive tried a few things like acid 

but not got addicted 

originally a personality disorder

im a bit unhinged

if i dont take my meds 

 

 

 

 

Tuesday, 13 February 2024

210224 , 200224 , 180224 , 170224 ,  160224 , 150224 , 140224

No 2 and baby mother have claimed responsibility for a decision where I can't spend a small inheritance on repairs to my home but must instead lose my benefits for a few months and then have to re-apply 

Apparently I was rioting

she says shes going to mess with my anti pschotic to give me something harmful  


 

I've moved my will

The author said that all male sex is rape

she uses coercion and fear to try to get me into bed , believes women should abstain from heterosexual relationships 

 id like to go to dignias 

I'll maybe speak to the author when I see her

220224 , she says she doesn't want to be forced to speak to me . I'll maybe just say hello and walk on then 

230224 , she says on the Internet she wants to be left alone . I'm open to speaking to her if I get the impression she wants me to 


Monday, 12 February 2024

 120224

sometimes its actually disappointing 

when the other person doesnt win 

 

 

 

 

Saturday, 10 February 2024

 110224

aint i a trooper ! 

we started off together 

then i thought about chewing gum 

and keep returning to this pornographic image 

from years ago 

im not sure what it represents for me 

n were still together 

i feel dizzy and sick 

the guitar is melting  

like candle wax

 

 

 

 

 

Wednesday, 7 February 2024

 130224 , 120224 , 110224 , 100224 , 090224 , 080224 , 070224

No 2 and baby mother have claimed responsibility for a decision where I can't spend a small inheritance on repairs to my home but must instead lose my benefits for a few months and then have to re-apply 

Apparently I was rioting

 baby mother planning to sieze number 6 for mating duties 

I've moved my will

The author said that all male sex is rape

she uses coercion and fear to try to get me into bed , believes women should abstain from heterosexual relationships 

Her warfaring doesn't endear me to the idea of a meetup

the authors feelings for me are very florid 

Saturday, 3 February 2024

 030224

The joy a bird feels wheeling in the storm 

050224

A long healing rest somewhere in the heroin of God

060224 ,  050224 , 040224 , 030224 

Baby mother planning to sieze no 6 for mating duties and is flaming at me on the forum , she says im to be raped

Clips tried to stop me getting a peer mentoring certificate because I'm not gay , she is tail gating me on the forum 

its also clips trying to stop me volunteering in mental healthand trying to black mail me  , giving me relationship advice via the author ha ha

baby mother is off to watch a video of me in my bedroom 

to see if it inspires her sexually 

Sister in law wants me to stop contacting my nephews

so that she can ship them all to a village in Italy

 

she wants me to sell the house and give her the money,

I've done my will but can always change or move it ! 

she is harrassing me on the forum 

Baby mother planning to sieze no 6 for mating duties and is flaming at me on the forum

Chuckster watching me on satellite hoping to get his end away

The author has resumed her tirades ...

The author is like that in real life 

 

She has a pink droblem 

Says she doesn't want to see me

She said all male sex is rape 

Which could be proved

She said I will have a tooth knocked out 

She wants something other than friendship

shes threatened me with arson 


 I have never worked in medicine

Baby mother is interfering with my online shopping so that items are not arriving

She wants to mess with my anti psychotic

shes stopped me being able to post music videos on the forum and threatens to interfere with my care package , and give me ect


and no 2 thinking im his partner when hes iin love withsky

Friday, 2 February 2024

 020223 

the way narcotic feelings can be transformed in NA