thing is if you are a bit doolally
then your community is with the doolally
we are all ruled
by our alien cat overlords
so anyway there was this guy ...
I fancied him
and my friends said he had unfinished business
with this other girl
and we all knew the other girl
was doing a friends husband
so I decided that my friends
were just being possessive about me
and then I'm reacting to people
and throwing myself at this guy ,
which obviously didnt work out
we got fed up with each other
and I felt guilty ever since
in the end I moved on from all of them
because I didnt understand
what they were talking about
and my behaviour was faulty
and not very ' Jane Austen '
it didnt ' look good '
well right now
I'm not so much concerned with him
he was the one to refuse intimacy
a shocking script
my nerdy boyfriends
were always concerned
that i would take time away from their gaming
and be hanging on to their leg
there was this incredible storm
outside the hospital
the wailing sounded like witches and demons
they cry and hiss
hail noble warrior
locked in a battle of wills
you have wrestled
with the most ferocious of beasts
playground rules
chicken
purple hearts all round
God is the Devil
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so anyway there was this guy ... going back about 10 years now
I fancied him and my friends said he had unfinished business
with this other girl
and we all knew the other girl was seeing a friends husband
so I decided that my friends were just being possessive about me
and then I'm reacting to people
and throwing myself at this guy ,
which obviously didnt work out
we got fed up with each other
and I felt guilty ever since
in the end I moved on from all of them
because I didnt understand what they were talking about
and my behaviour was faulty
and not very ' Jane Austen '
it didnt ' look good '
well right now I'm not so much concerned with him
more about being a better friend
300819
he was the one to refuse intimacy
a shocking script
my nerdy boyfriends
were always concerned
that i would take time away from their gaming
and be hanging on to their leg
playground rules
chicken
300819
God is the Devil
purple hearts all round
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playing hard ball
disturbance of the peace
on the Irish border
sorry its because of Brexit
maybe it feels safe
to be in a dark place
at rock bottom
which nobody can take away
this cocoon,
this womb of darkness
looking at the damp walls
of my cave
in the barely dim light
depends what you see
when you look at the moon
when you're bathed in its light
you might fall in love with someone
who is young, cheeky and married
rude and who thinks you're fat and ugly
its the unavailability that draws me in
adrenalin, drama, mystery
what you have there is a toddler
who is about 6 foot 2, well built,
who has endured 40 years of neglect
and with all the attendant demands of a toddler
he's going to kick hard against the boundaries
so what am i supposed to do
wear a bin liner ?
i had no fight left in me
let sleep overcome your mind
actually how many times
has it really gone well
actually face to face
well now i remember
when finishing wasnt the goal
n it was all journey
240819
depends what you see
when you look at the moon
when you're bathed in its light
230819
you might fall in love with someone
who is young, cheeky and married
rude and who thinks you are old and fat
its the unavailability that draws me in
adrenalin, drama, mystery
230819
what you have there is a toddler
who is about 6 foot 2, well built,
who has endured 40 years of neglect
and with all the demands of a toddler
he's going to kick hard against the boundaries
so what am i supposed to do
wear a bin liner ?
i had no fight left in me
160819 / 180819
let sleep overcome your mind
actually how many times
has it really gone well
actually face to face
well now i remember
when finishing wasnt the goal
n it was all journey
and i didnt mind
no deal would be
' challenging for the economy '
without going into any details
about what that means
where others have warned
of civil unrest, riots
endless queues , empty shelves and medicine shortages
to name but a few
sounds like a scene from Judge Dredd !
i had one boyfriend
who made me wait two years
and another one year
then they said
i had still rushed them
he seemed quite formidable
so i thought i'd stand up to him
Sheldon and Amy
waited three years
i saw them as some sort of conquest
flirting with the line
if i do it out of obligation
I'm just going through the motions
because either I was doing what someone else wanted
or else they were doing what I wanted
sometimes I have made a guy feel obligated
to go through with it
once it gets past a certain point,
say, once some clothes come off
then ive lost the ability to know what I want
he has a mental illness himself !
and has he seen the moon recently ?
interesting how thats like a gentle rap
that still has rhythm
must be something else
it took a few goes
because of the pain
and him not wanting to hurt me
he was the sort of guy
who could stop at any time
150819
i had one boyfriend
who made me wait two years
and another one year
then they said
i had still rushed them
and that i was ' too easy '
Sheldon and Amy
waited three years
i saw them as some sort of conquest
flirting with the line
if i do it out of obligation
I'm just going through the motions
you know what I dont think I ever got this right really
because either I was doing what someone else wanted
or else they were doing what I wanted
sometimes I have made a guy feel obligated
to go through with it
once it gets past a certain point, say, once some clothes come off
then ive lost the ability to know what I want
and am just going through the motions
150819
it took a few goes
because of the pain
and him not wanting to hurt me
he was the sort of guy
who could stop at any time
130819
but he has a mental illness himself !
and has he seen the moon recently ?
100819
he seemed quite formidable
so i thought i'd stand up to him
and reclaim my narrative
so apparently i hear voices
obfuscating
what amazes me more
is you are exasperated
that people don't understand Brexit
then you go and find long articles and videos
for them to study
when you could just do a little summary !
sorry if i hurt your feelings
just shoving you about a bit
the person i was chatting with reminds me of an ex partner
who was like an old school, how to say ?
gentleman who is into stocks and shares
or something you know ?
not suited, but very brexiteer type,
Americanised
old boys network stuff !
abuse is what i deserve
cus i am bad
cus i let them down
we'd carry the news
making alot of energy
alot of scratch
like the scratches on my soul
he wimpered
when i stroked his tummy
and sitting up
bared his teeth
in a friendly way
the person to person interface
is affected
so that we don't connect
or feel the earth between our feet
fluffing our feathers
n Scarey n i
would close our eyes
in reverence at our love
its a scary place to be
when you leave behind
all that you know
and the earth opens up beneath you
safeword
050819
obfuscating
what amazes me more
is you are exasperated
that people don't understand Brexit
then you go and find long articles and videos
for them to study
when you could just do a little summary !
050819
sorry if i hurt your feelings
just shoving you about a bit
the person i was chatting with reminds me of an ex partner
who ws like an old school, how to say ?
gentleman who is into stocks and shares or something you know ?
not suited, but very brexiteer type, Americanised
old boys network stuff !
