Saturday, 30 June 2018

300618 

its like you just reproduce
and thats all there is 
and your personality 
doesnt matter any more 

go away 
i don't want to talk to you 
i dont owe you anything 
leave me alone 
I've got enough of my own problems 








Wednesday, 27 June 2018

270618 

like a bad fall 

going through the motions 
its like I've been hypnotised
i don't know how i feel 
i don't say
like I'm acting 
and I'm not aware that I'm acting 

then the next morning i think 
what was that ? 

















Monday, 25 June 2018

230618 / 250618 

a feeling beyond fantasy 

drinking dirty water 

i was trying too hard 
and I was disloyal to my friends 

i didnt know i was flirting 








Saturday, 23 June 2018

song : i jumped off a cliff to find my moon dust, original

please don't shy away from me 
I'm just like you 
i have to work at it 
the way you do 

n you have no idea 
i beg borrow and steal 
to save my family 
from their ordeal 

my dreams are fickle 
thats my moon dust 
to lose it all
to have it back 


technology 
has caught me out 
it just tears at my heart 
i jumped off a cliff 

cus i dont understand 
what they could see 
from the satellite 
cameras up there 

like a primitive
im cracking up  

n I'm sea sick
life has no meaning 
this biting hunger 
so cold inside 

rigid with shock 
traumatised 
shut out of the warmth 
starving for love 

he hasn't phoned 
tears are the rain 
that waters the garden 
the summer atmosphere 

technology 
has caught me out 
it just tears at my heart 
i jumped off a cliff 







Wednesday, 20 June 2018

200618 

the birds spoke to me of bird laws 
my fickle dreams 

please don't shy away from me 
I'm just like you 
i have to work at it 
the way you do 

n you have no idea 
i beg borrow and steal 
to save my family 
from their ordeal 

my dreams are fickle 
thats my moon dust 
to lose it all
to have it back 

cus i dont understand 
what they could see 
from the satellite 
cameras up there 

like a primitive
im cracking up  

n I'm sea sick
life has no meaning 
this biting hunger 
so cold inside 

rigid with shock 
traumatised 
shut out of the warmth 
starving for love 

he hasn't phoned 
tears are the rain 
that waters the garden 
the summer atmosphere 

technology 
has caught me out 
it just tears at my heart 
i jumped off a cliff 




Thursday, 14 June 2018

130618 / 140618 

thats my moon dust 
to lose it all
to have it back 

it just tears at my heart 
i jumped off a cliff 















Tuesday, 12 June 2018

120618 

the fib hacked into my email account 
and deleted permanently some mail 

because Fritz is not getting on that well 
with his new girlfriend 









Thursday, 7 June 2018

070618 

i hope he's not going to lurch at me ! 









Tuesday, 5 June 2018

050618 / 060618 

oh no , no snog thankyou ! 
and did i lead him on ? 

insecurity 

just thinking 
about how much he hates me 
at regular intervals 

things are going wrong 










Monday, 4 June 2018

040618 / 050618 

these feelings 
are not really fulfilling 

vey zick 
n my love for him 
put me in a mental home 
i was crying for him 
when the ambulance came 

my home is filthy 

n this is my mania 










Saturday, 2 June 2018

020618 / 040618

dizzy 

there's this anger
that comes from the ovaries 
what no baby ? ! 

technology has caught me out 
cus i dont understand 
what they could all see 
from the satellite 

like a primitive 

cracking up 

sea sick 
it didnt mean anything 

nobody ever asked her what she wanted ...