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i don't want to click another smilie
like George and Mildred 

am i supposed to say goodnight ? 
am i just doing what he wants ? 
am i looking for a parent ? 
being myself ? 

listen to the darkness 

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im vegetarian curious 

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hi this is a bit of an odd way to introduce myself 

but hi I've got my ex on the line 
complaining nobody understands him  
n I'm like what am i supposed to do about it   ? 

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2020 vision 

boxing day used to be the giving of alms 
why don't we call it alms day 
and have an alms day treasure hunt ?

children will love it 
after all the receiving of presents 
to hunt through their old toys 

for presents for the poor children 

word jam : the anti Christmas Rebellion Protest

Christmas feels all wrong 
n you gotta join in 
you gotta join in 

one day there will be an anti Christmas rebellion protest 
a sit in with people eating carrots, baked beans 
and doing anything that is un- Christmassy ! 


did i ask for this ?  
I've got to go out 
and smile at social events ? 

here is a person 
who does not really want to be here 

what do they do with their life ?   

im 55 and have alot of cellulite 
which is largely covered up with dark clothing 
there is plenty of dust in my home 
and I lie on the sofa alot of the time 
watching American sitcoms 
and eating bananas 

pretty overweight , and with few friends 
I largely shun society 
and have badly hung curtains 

come and join me !

maybe take the bedroom off the table for a bit !

what do I mean by American values ? !

I think something like the American dream 
where everyone is self supporting 
and creates hockey mum families 
with tall glowing blonde teenagers 
who play American ball games 
and act as teenagers 

looking super fit 
and everything is positive and exciting all the time ! 

it can also be confusing sometimes 
when someone does not give signals 
sometimes I'm not sure if I'm chatting to a friend or a date 
about a controversial topic 


maybe the onus is on the recipient of the signals 
not to jump to premature conclusions

like slut, slag, slapper tart, tease, 
traditionally intended to make a woman responsible 
for a mans sexual feelings 
as part of being straight , this is an issue for women 
in that it can inhibit their sexuality and its expression 

there must be vast swathes of rich material undiscovered in women 
that are not allowed out because of the fear 
of being condemned by society 

making the territory of straight women 
a vast undiscovered continent 

most men find it difficult 
to withhold the thrust 
fearing they may lose it 

but we need the stop and start
in order to keep it 

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Christmas feels all wrong 
n you gotta join in 
you gotta join in 

one day there will be an anti Christmas rebellion protest 
a sit in with people eating carrots, baked beans 
and doing anything that is un- Christmassy ! 

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im 55 and have alot of cellulite
which is largely covered up with dark clothing
there is plenty of dust in my home
and I lie on the sofa alot of the time
watching American sitcoms
and eating bananas

pretty overweight , and with few friends
I largely shun society
and have badly hung curtains

come and join me !

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maybe take the bedroom off the table for a bit !



my heart is here actually
this messy shambles of a country, with its crude sense of humour
and people who drink too much
needs a kick up the backside from Greta Thunberg though

what do I mean by American values ? !

I think something like the American dream
where everyone is self supporting
and creates hockey mum families
with tall glowing blonde teenagers
who play American ball games
and act as teenagers

looking super fit
and everything is positive and exciting all the time !

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it can also be confusing sometimes
when someone does not give signals
especially if you dont know what gender or orientation they are
sometimes I'm not sure if I'm chatting to a friend or a date
about a controversial topic
especially nowadays there are so many genders to learn about

why dont we just agree that women have magical powers
that they have to be careful with ?

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maybe the onus is on the recipient of the signals
not to jump to premature conclusions

like slut, slag, slapper tart, tease,
traditionally intended to make a woman responsible
for a mans sexual feelings
as part of being straight , this is an issue for women
in that it can inhibit their sexuality and its expression

there must be vast swathes of rich material undiscovered in women
that are not allowed out because of the fear
of being condemned by society

making the territory of straight women
a vast undiscovered continent

which ultimately impoverishes the experiences of straight men !

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most men find it difficult 
to withhold the thrust 
fearing they may lose it 

but we need the stop and start
in order to keep it 

word jam : messing about

would you rather 
sleep with a fish or a hyena 

messing around with the boys 
causing trouble 
keep it in your pants   

why do i always fancy the wrong person ? 

those girls at the races had a choice 
it was a drunken dare 

pissing in the urinals 

and things are such now 
that i seem to have a few male partners 
all of whom know that we are not faithful to each other 
but each one seems to be the right one when I'm talking to him 
the real one the one who is really my partner 

so like several open relationships going on 

and I'm stumbling around in the dark 


I actually think there is something magnificent about bpd 
they are such passionate creative people, so brave and fearless 

I suppose the self harm is a bitch 

harassed by a drunk man 

well yes and alot of men do understand as well 
if they are not drunk in an unpleasant way 

but yes I do end up thinking what have I done to invite this 
certainly nothing flirtatious in this case 
I started wondering if his hair looks like mine 
because it is scruffy 

sometimes hair can attract certain types of people

or if a woman expresses a sexual thought 

so there are circles where this is not a problem 
like in new age progressive green gatherings 
where roleplay groups are doing conflict management and stuff 
there are workshops where sexuality is explored 

but in mainstream society 
if a woman expresses something sexual or flirtatious 
its is regarded as a promise to any male present 
or even also to a gay woman present sometimes 

when she may not actually have invested so much of herself in that thought
she may be just experiencing herself 

there used to be a thing 
where some women expected to be chased 
as part of a courting game 

but its best not to do that now 

or if people want to play those games 
they need to put in place a safe word 
no need to make one up 
just say ' safe word ' 

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would you rather 
sleep with a fish or a hyena 

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messing around with the boys 
causing trouble 
keep it in your pants