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cylinder 

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round, oval , 

I remember sitting on a terrace with a friend
and the clouds in the distance were heavy and dark
except for a layer of balmy light underneath
which was in that magical melting stillness

and I said to her
that the whole scape said
that the clouds were an illusion
and things are alright really !

I think it might be also
that the hormones produced in pregnancy
are very tranquilising

so you might not need medication at that time 

ive often seen an anvil shape
really dramatic night skies on windy nights
that look like a baroque painting
and surrealist landscapes at sunset
that look like the graphics on a Yes album
like a Salvador Dali painting

not to mention the complicated instructions I get from clouds
regarding my relationships to different people !

the tension and the knot in my stomach
i discussed this in Alanon before 6.30 pm

the tension in my body
might be relieved a bit by 

yes its when the sky is really still I think
especially where I am in the countryside
the stillness is much more than in the city
it really does stand completely still
and the colours very bright

oh yes sometimes there is a dragons head

when its a dragons head
it always looks like it says
there ... the monster was just a dream !

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i seem to be a figment 
of The Author's imagination 

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is it dangerous 
if you fail to have an orgasm ? 

does it leave you with alot of anger ? 

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ive often seen an anvil shape
really dramatic night skies on windy nights
that look like a baroque painting
and surrealist landscapes at sunset
that look like the graphics on a Yes album
like a Salvador Dali painting

not to mention the complicated instructions I get from clouds
regarding my relationships to different people !

I remember sitting on a terrace with a friend
and the clouds in the distance were heavy and dark
except for a layer of balmy light underneath
which was in that magical melting stillness

and I said to her
that the whole scape said
that the clouds were an illusion
and things are alright really !

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i like it when a man shows vulnerability 

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where do the birds go 
in a thunderstorm ? 

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i feel like a child at a dinner party 
i dont understand half 
of the intellectual discussions being had 
and feel inclined to misbehave 
and find someone else to misbehave with 

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the birds sing of orchids 
and other exotic things 
from faraway lands 

they sing how beautiful are we
each and every one  

with full throated bellies 

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I think because of the lockdown
I started noticing things and playing games with it
like when I was a child !

like I blow my nose in the shower
and want to watch the piece of snot
sailing towards the plughole
like a little boat !

I stare at the wallpaper and the pattern
turns itself inside out !

I see new things in old pictures
especially faces

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a kick in the back 

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the birds are singing 
how beautiful it is 
to live in a tree 
enchanted by the mystery 

with yesterdays quarrels forgot 

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i feel like a child at a dinner party 

silly is the new sick 

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the woman who gave birth to a bird 

you learn to read their eyes 

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on saturday night 
you can hear them 
effing and blinding down the road 

effing every sentence 

word jam : dilated pupils

magic crackers 
from the astral plane 

i was terrified its so intense  
love rains on me  

the dogs of law 
wrestle and grapple with conflict management 
wrangling roughouse  

its blown my legs off 
n i didnt really think 
anybody would be interested in that one 

he's stringing me along 

getting on my wick , taking the piss   
I stepped on a land mine 

i might have woken the young neighbours 
when i cried out 

but Dev said its dangerous 
to leave it in there 

and its hard with all these 
uninvited specatators 

being taped 

he kept pushing that button 
and i was so tired ! 
my eyes were like empty sockets 

slang bang wallop 

trying my patience 
whipping me up ,  
aggravation chafing  

getting a raise

and his baby mother 
was not invited to watch  

i came from the soul

stretched out on a rack 
in agonising contortions 
gritting my teeth 

just like goo
my pupils dilated like an acid trip 

consuming acid treats 

turbulence 

oestrogen hormones 
that swirl around us 
making us more tolerant of men

a traumatic outburst 
like a lunatic 
grovelling and freaking out 

emittng an angry light  

this morning it was getting light 
and the chorus hadnt started 
they seem to know its cloudy 
and make a sadder song 

later in the day 
the birds speak of things 
we are not privy to

sources of food, predators to avoid 
nesting grounds 
the flight paths of other flocks 

another day singing 
and flying through the trees
enchanted with their own voices 

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from the astral plane 

magic crackers 

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i was terrified of it , so painful 

love rain on me 

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the dogs of law 

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wrestle, grapple, scuffle,    
tussle, clash, conflict management 
strife  roughouse 
striving wrangle   long haul 

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labouring to get there 
to this remote place 

cracker snap  

unexpected, surprise     
taunted, teased, 
its blown my legs off 
n i didnt really think anybody would be interested 
in that one 

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winding me up 
stringing me along 

i didnt think anybody 
would be interested in that one 

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cracker snaps 

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incendiary , touch paper 

getting on my wick , taking the mick   

stepped on a land mine 

i might have woken the young neighbours 
when i cried out 

they did make extra noise today 

but Dev said its dangerous 
to leave it in there 

and its hard with all these 
uninvited specatators 

bang taped 

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he kept pushing that button 

and i was so tired ! 

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my eyes were like empty sockets 

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gang raped 

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he was getting on my nerves,  
trying my patience 
whipping me up ,  
aggravation 
incite , chafe,    
bugging me 

getting a raise

and his baby mother 
was not invited to watch  

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i came from the soul

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stretched out on a rack 
agonising contortions 
it sook so long to get it out 

gritting my teeth 

this morning it was getting light 
and the chorus hadnt started 
they seem to know its cloudy 
and make a sadder song 

just like goo

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perhaps the girlies thought that animal war
had broken out in the neighbourhood

started by next doors boy cat !

Willow says all other cats and horsie monsters would be against a Willow

poor Tigger and Willow up against all the animals in the neighbourhood !

Tigger says all the other cats are on their side, Willow says the opposite

bit confusing who is at war then !
Tigger probably thinks its a toy war
with plastic water guns !

wandered out of the forum staff room and Willow started a fight with the other cats on the forum and there was a right scrap going on between Willow and another cat

would phone Midnight and the other cats owner
and ask you both to come and break up the scrap !

or he might sprinkle WATER on the two cats !!!!

what does he do if the other cat owner refuses to come but midnight does come and lure Willow back with web box

he puts a message up on the forum
could the ' description ' cats owner come and pick him up
or he will get sprinkled from a water gun !

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consuming acid treats 

later in the day 
the birds speak of things 
we are not privy to

sources of food, predators to avoid 
nesting grounds 
the flight paths of other flocks 

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turbulence 

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oestrogen hormones 
that swirl around us 
making us more tolerant of males

a traumatic outburst 
like a lunatic 
grovelling and freaking out 

emittng an angry light 

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paroxysm , seizure 

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another day singing 
and flying through the trees
enchanted with their own voices 

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she wakes up at 3 am 
to kick the guys in the nuts 

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dilated pupils 

word jam : people think I'm on drugs

oi mate, 2 meters please 

sometimes frozen after dinner mints  
taste better on a hot day  
especially when offered 

now we all look like letter boxes 

people sometimes think I'm on drugs ! 
every now and then a random acquaintance will hint at it 
and I remember once the police in Italy thought i was druggy 
even when I hadnt had any

well I dabbled a bit in my teens 
but then I was not
being more straight edge 

sometimes I think its cool to talk about drugs 
and things I learned from them 

I'm just very right brained
going deep within

a whale in the last throes of death 

on the dodgems 

like a blubbery seal 
slaps down onto dry land 
stupefied and squealing  
honking like a foghorn 

unaware of the polar bear behind 
brandishing its jaws

i felt something jump down my throat
now there is a frog in there 

what colours are going on inside you ? 
im full of the greenery 
going on outside 

some inky violets and purples and pinks 

you can feel whatever feelings
you want to feel here 
nobody will put any pressure on you 
or judge you for them 

chasing bigger and bigger highs 
until they finally do me in  

a sensible answer ?

i didnt know who i was 
i was quite ill for 3 days 

the birds are singing 
how wonderful it is 
to wake up to this world 

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the birds are singing 
how wonderful it is 
to wake up to this world 

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sometimes frozen after dinner mints  
taste better on a hot day  
especially when offered 

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now we all look like letter boxes 

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people sometimes seem to think I'm on drugs !
every now and then a random acquaintance will hint at it
and I remember once the police in Italy thought so
even when I hadnt had any, and some children used to call me druggy !

well I dabbled a bit in my teens
but then I went more anti drugs on the whole
and was not even much into alcohol, being more straight edge

sometimes I think its cool to talk about drugs
and things I learned from them
but people bring it up when I not talking about that

I have not had any alcohol now for 6 years
mainly because I dont enjoy it
and it seems to cancel out the effects of the medication

I'm just very right brained, in the creative side
and get very lost in there , so maybe thats what it is

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a whale in the last throes of death 

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theres a giant insect on the forum 
hoovering people up 
with its proboscis 

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dodgems 

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like a blubbery seal 
slaps down onto dry land 
stupefied and squealing  
honking like a foghorn 

unaware of the polar bear behind 
brandishing its jaws

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yesterday i was in the supermarket 
and there was one other lady in the aisle with me 
who was breathless and spluttering in a mask 
after she went past 
i felt something jump down my throat 

and this morning i woke up with a chesty cough 

so i don't think the masks work if you have a flu 

now there is a frog in my throat