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Ender history 

18.44, 12.09.12. 

ok going back to 2008 I decided to back off because I bought the idea that Trix was a family man and I also calculated that he would end up staying where he is which was quite a reasonable thing to assume. 
I don't remember having any sort of fight with enders in those days 
and yet when i backed off she jibed me with 'she didn't put up much of a fight' 
and then in 2009 she started watching the footage of me masturbating which she found worked. The thing is i didn't know they were doing that and i haven't given permission for intimate footage of me to be used for her pornography ... 
and was an act of aggression towards me on her part ... 

its not surprising that i resurfaced 4  years later like someone turning up at the scene of a crime without quite knowing why .... 

21.08, 16.09.12. 

so anyway 2008 I backed off and let her have what she wanted like the mothers in Solomon ... as you do ... and i also attempted to befriend her with a view to letting it all go ... but noted that she never responded to any of my overtures. And her poems in those days were dead weights like lead ... that was until she started writing all her poems about me ... and although they are a putridly sinister documentation of her torture of me ... actually do have a lighter feel to them probably because of the venting of her guilt ... 

I note also that the sanctioning of this blog the other day occurred immediately after I started the story of Enders .. . so watch this space for it happening again! Ive noted also that her abuse of my footage suggests in some way that she thinks I might love her ... I don't love her ... and I don't appreciate her getting into bed with me in this way ... or in any way in fact ... would I wish to be in bed with Enders and what she is doing amounts to forcing someone to have sexual activity in front of you something they do in torture sessions ... 

8.12am, 17.09.12. 
course one problem is that she is very hooked on my intimate footage because nothing else seems to work for her even a troop of young girls apparently ... in fact recently i put up better curtaining and she pigeoned my radio to say that she was hunting down the footage via the camera in my computers ...