jupitersterrain four

ssssoooo thats why he won't let me hear his pppppodcastsssss ... 

ssssshhhhit theres another pppperson in there ... 
and you wonder what is better the 
nuclear thing or the emotional 
connection its fairly obvious 





2.15am 



oh there is stuff from 
toddlerhood why is it i feel there 
is a gap there ... you thought you liked being on your own ... 

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oh yeah drugs ... 
i was lucky not to get hooked on those touch wood ... 
hopefully ... 

what did we do magic mushrooms 
part of that was the fun of picking them ... 
train trips to Epping Forest with Ian and Druggy Dom 

two very trippy guys i somehow managed to 
bypass ... anyway a tent in Epping it 
was freezing and the mushrooms
make you feel like a  five year
old with that sensual 
buzzy thing ... Ian was sort of 
jumping on me like in an innocent way 

and then we had a useless mood trying to 
put the tent down before heading 
off into the darkness listening to the doors 
blazing out from Doms backpack 

and just literally heading into darkness 
like you'd never come back 

another time he came into my room 
when we were not stoned 
and i knew he wanted to jump on me 
and i wanted him to 

and you think how did that not happen ... 
there were alot of things like that either someone 
would walk into your room or 
you'd walk into theirs knock knock 
can i come in ... and sort of whispering 

and i defininetly missed out with that one ... 

and then we did acid an i had a bad paranoia 
trip and liked the trippy colours and stuff 
which seemed to be available 
elsewhere like through sex 
and music  so i didn't 
really do drugs after that ... 

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oh look now you're at the window too 
no I'm using this to talk to someone else ... as you do ... 

yes i just happen to be going that way 
you wanted to be a musician ... 
don't you mean you wanted to play music 

i mean that is how you come across ... 
so theres a complete other person underneath then ... 
which is what i see ... in fact if i do get to meet 
you i will always call you Scarey ...