jupitersterrain four

she would pilfer my drafts
before they even reached the page 

with the justification that i was unemployed .... 


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anyway her using me as a performance 
enhancing drug means that i have 
to put some of my feelings in another 
basket otherwise they would just feed hers .... 

its like a sort of plague of the internet
i feel hard pushed these days to 
find anyone that is being themselves .... 

like everyone you meet is being someone 
else and usually they want to tell me all about myself .... 






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and is this really a fair competition i mean 
not only she is on performance 
enhancing drugs the the drug is me ! 

she has wedged herself in my spine
like some sort of cyst and 
im not supposed to fight her 

while she leeches my energy 
this is killing me 
and i am not apathetic .... 

thats the authors line 

in fact i might need to 
switch off for a few days 

and i can look after him 
and i can too ... 







11pm 11.04.13. 


sssshhhhit shshsheee 

might llllleave him for sssomenone 

more innvvvvisssible .....