word jam : dressing up

you know like when you get winded 
by a cricket bat 
that kind of winded 

so does he want me to 
think about him less, 
or to think about him more ? 
n why am i even 
thinking about what he wants ? 

I've built it up in my head 
we have alot in common
maybe we can help each other 

its just so intense 

im in love with a man 
I've never even seen his face

n getting into scraps over him 
with girls I've never met ! 

n pretty sure 
im not the only one 

n yeah who'd a thunk it ! 
thunk, thonk, thud, funk 

we are stardust 
from a billion years ago 
with 20 20 vision 
so we gotta be on the LGBT spectrum 
so that makes me a gay man ! 
and you're a lesbian 

can you steer it ? 

k well to put it another way 
suppose you were invited to a party in real life 
they were all dressing up 
and you were asksed to put on make up and a dress 
would you be a party pooper not to 

sometimes these clues 
are a wild goose chase 

do you want to be 
an internet mole or a nightingale 
a moth or a butterfly ? 

do you like boundaries,  professionals ? 
we're all too damn insecure 

the war of words 
is in its infancy 

do you like secrecy , power , clones ? 

so i took my familiar drug of choice 
oblivion 

am i breathing down his neck ?  

can he match my love 
blow for blow ? 

with internet eyes 

actually the word slut 
suggests there is something attractive about you 

to be able to squander it 
in the first place 

n I've lost track 
of who is who 

so the ex turns up 
and says she hasn't seen him for three months 
and that they were sleeping together 
her heart is broken she says 

a friend of ours 
says there will be consequences 
she has a right to be angry

n what if she's right ?