word jam : revenge porn

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hebephrenic
i have a right to an opinion
even if someone is twisting my arm or has me in a headlock
I've had a brush with brutality before
n I'm a very huggy person

guy no 2 is threatening
to show nude pictures of me online as revenge porn

im love sick over you , nauseous 
n were in uncharted waters
 
i have an angry red swollen leg
so hopefully people wont think im vain
if i do some pampering and beauty treatments !
holding my head high 
 
and involve eating raw garlic , 

seaweed 
and cold lemon juice in the evenings 



so that I smell of garlic
and have bits of seaweed around my chops

theyre trying to bully my soul out of me with zersetzung
they even said so
 
i need to get to a sex addicts meeting
but dont seem to have the time

cam girl and i just shook hands and made friends again on a thread
and then shes on another thread
dissing me with one of her thousands of identities !
her betrayal not mine !
 
but we do get on sometimes  
 
n we just ate a huge pile of vegetables
 
speakers corner
self compassion
in this harsh brutal meaningless world !
people are dying of loneliness of stress ! of heart break  

mental health treatment has come a long way
since my mother committed suicide 

in Friern Barnet hospital in London in 1982 ,
just before the new mental health act of 1983
but where is it going now seemingly backwards  
towards the ' moral treatments ' of the Victorian era

surely we are learning by now
that most mental illnesses needs nurturing and not punishment !
when will we realise this !

kindness, patience, education
when will we see this spread so that we can stop these needless suicides

n now I'm all befuddled and bewildered again !

yearning nausea grinding golem mome
 
stallion , neigh
 
k well i dont seem to trust you though do i
and he seems to know all my movements  
when its all foghorned on the internet

k so apparently im in a ' fishbowl '
being watched by his babymother all the time
she actually said so herself

he's a supernatural guy
 
any resemblance to persons living or dead
or never before seen ...
 
he is creepy isnt he
our love is like a conversation between two aliens
not some b list movie
n we ask each other if its alright  

being present in the moment 

positive psychosis ? 


oh yes lots , I remember the whole kitchen came alive 

like all the noises of boilers , fridges , 

cups and things 
sounded like music, even the creaking floorboards !
the skateboard park sounded like reggae
and all the trees came to life and made sounds

Shirley Temple !
n that'd make you Clint Eastwood !
 
fire lighter

k lets do it for England then
he he's warm and hot
and penetrated to my soul

like the shapes do match

n if im not in the mood
the other person can go and eff themselves !
 
i am not the person who abused you
and i am not responsible for your feelings 
 
n afterwards a blissful nothingness
like the big bang in reverse
time going backwards 
in throbbing wumps