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an im gettin an image of me being all confident 
and bashing out his will so that he would 
be all helpless and clingy on me 

which was not my intention 




an i think those early memories of my brother 
and my nephews are one reason i didn't 
have any children .... its like yeah
i know what is like to have 
a cute little baby 
nestled in your arms 
an rock them to sleep n stuff 

n how they ring an chime with delight when you walk in 

and after that was more interested
in their personalities 




I knew what people needed .. and i did 
too ... my grandmother needed 
her rheums massaged 
in a certain way 

and the rest of them wanted 
hand drawn Christmas cards n 
stuff i knew how to please people 

and was a very good little girl ... 





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it was a bit hard thought to stop Ho Ho being funny 
and we would descend together to the deepest 
pits of filth and lavatory humour that 
two ten year olds can achieve ... 


um ... not sure if its repeatable on an adult 
site what two ten year olds said ... 


n Ho Ho was funny ...
Mum accused me of making 
him into a 'funny man' a moral lesson 
that really sticks ... using your brother as a funny 
man at the age of ten is quite a taxing concept ... an Mum 
was like that she would pull us up on our treatment of other 
children and stuff if she felt they were being mocked or made to 
feel inferior ... and that i shouldn't dismiss people with less exciting lives ... 








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