jupitersterrain four

doing weird things on drugs ... i think i did 
more weird things after i came off 

Fox and i gave up everything fags booze etc 
so that we could feel things 
and would stand in the street chanting Sanskrit 
mantras to try to stop us fighting 

and then how come both of us 
were excaping up the fire escape staircase
at the back of his flat where 
we impinged ourselves on the turkish neighbours 




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course his mother was determined to split us up 
and is still harassing me and copying 
my work to this day .... 

why was i going to keep that one i felt he 
would make a good father because 
he ws in a wheelchair 
that he would be there for us 
oh yes i went out with a disabled person 
he was brain damaged

we tried to make a baby in the hospital toilet
i always through having a baby 
sounds a bit like being disable ... like 
being tied to the wheelchair n stuff

an then i didn't really want them 
except that one i did i was gonna keep it